Lisa~ Checking on you?? - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

lortabbuzzer · 10-02-2003, 12:01 PM

Hi Lisa~
I know that we haven't conversed alot on here but for some reason, maybe because I have read so many of your posts, I feel like I know you. I just wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers through this whole ordeal. I am pushing closer to that line of getting a plan to stop this maddness!!! A main problem for me is that my boyfriend is a user also and me stopping would mean the end of our relationship, atleast for the time being. I know, because I have been through it before, I can't even be around it. The only reason I held my clean time for three months is because of the out patient counseling. I know now that I MUST get an outside support to keep clean. I thought that I could just take a "few" and then drop it but now I am back up and beyond how many I was taking before detox, detox was in April and I started using again in July. I can take anywhere from 4-24 a day, depending on the supply. I am soooooo impressed that you can taper. I have been trying to just hold on to my supply for more than two days and can't even seem to do that. I had 45 on Tuesday and now I have one. I don't have a plan but I know I must get one and get one quick!!!
Well, I hope you check in with me and let me know how you are doing. I will right behind you if I don't find some tonight, which may be for the best.
Thoughs and good wishes you way~
Candi

lisaaahubb · 10-02-2003, 06:29 PM

Hey Candi, your other post caught my eye, and i don't know if i responded but i remember being hesitant because I didn't want to be the one to tell you that you would have to kick the BOYFRIEND and PILLS!!! I am glad you already knew that....well i went to the pharm. today and to no avail, my script wasn't ready....so i went back in a 1/2 an hour and they only had 10 out of my 30 pills.....someone forgot to order narcotics at the pharm...so they OWE me 20, they will be in by noon tomorrow. WEIRD OR WHAT!?! Divine intervention of some sort...i am only going to take a couple a day and continue with my taper versus the cold turkey....as w/d starting setting in today, my mind quickly changed and i have only taken 2 1/2 today and feel pretty good, now. This morning and afternoon was a different story...that's for sure! Well i am glad you found this place. I hope you stick around. Talk to you soon
LISA

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