Heroin Withdrawl Day 4 - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

Rani · 10-02-2003, 08:49 PM

Will this ever end? After years of sobriety I fell off the wagon. It took 2 months from a glass of wine with dinner to a shot of smack with breakfast. I only did the heroin for 5 days but the way I feel I may as well have done it for 5 months. I'm past the sleeping all day stage and into the jittery, insomniac, depressive and anxious stage. I can't get comfortable but when I try to get up and move around I am forced to sit or lay back down again in total exhaustion. My spine feels rotten with poison. All I can do is cry, watch tv, talk to my friends or sponsor on the phone. I'm just grateful I don't have to work or have any kids to care for. Any words of encouragement would be appreciated.

toughtime · 10-02-2003, 08:57 PM

Hey there,
way to go! I'm really proud of you that you quit. Don't beat yourself up over 5 days. Just remember how bad it feels to quit so you don't fall in the cycle. I've never done heroin, so I don't know how awful you're feeling, but if you're on day 5, I'm sure it will get better soon. Hang in there. Pray. Rest and relax. Be really glad you don't have kids or a job. I am a single mom who works and just quitting pills and trying to function is really hard. Keep up the good work!

Rani · 10-02-2003, 09:05 PM

Hi. Thanks for you swift reply. It's nice to know someone cares. I don't know what pills you did, but if they were any kind of painkillers the withdrawls are darn near the same. They all effect opiate receptors in the brain in one way or another. It must've been awfully hard working, caring for kids,and qutting pills. I can't imagine. I have the dubiuos luxury of being able to go cold turkey and get it over with. This is still not fun though. It does not feel like it will ever get any better. Thanks again for your reply.

toughtime · 10-02-2003, 09:13 PM

Hi Rani!
This is almost like IM'ing. I've been on hydrocodone for a couple of years. Sometimes I take 6-8 a day, sometimes 2-4. I don't know. You gave me credit saying it's good that I quit, as busy as I am. I am weak. I quit once for 5 days and started again. I quit today. (I just posted too.) I feel like hydro's help me be supermom. I work, I take care of my daughter, I clean house. When I try to quit I lay around like a slug and cry. Very very pathetic, I know. Yea, these are just a milder heroin I guess. That's why I've always been terrified of heroin- I have a very addictive personality. And I'm sure I would have liked it; I liked every other drug I tried! But you have my total respect getting off of it. I know it's harder on the body. I think, in my case anyway, these are harder on the mind. Hang in there. I do care and I'll pray for you. I'm not really religious, but I believe that God does listen when we can't cope and need courage and strength. Take care!

Rani · 10-02-2003, 09:20 PM

Thanks again. I think I'm also really poisoned from the crap they cut the heroin with. Who knows what they put in it on the street. At least you know the Pharmaceutical pills are clean. Hang in there. And don't beat your self up either!