Grateful2BSober

Hi everyone....I have been reading so many of your posts for months now and can really relate to so many of your stories as if they were my own. I just wanted to say to all of you who are struggling and are in pain, both physical and emotional, that life truly does get better without the drugs and alcohol. I celebrated three years in recovery last night at my AA homegroup and I NEVER thought that I could go one hour, let alone 3 years, without something to numb all of the pain and misery I was feeling. The biggest demon for me was those nasty little pills, as it is for so many of you guys.

Recovery is a slow process, and the first step is admitting that there is a problem and then reaching out for help. I only wish I had found this board when I was still struggling so I could have had such understanding and caring "people like me" to talk to. I hated my life and was a miserable person whose life revolved around planning, obtaining and taking those little pills, with no time left for my husband and kids. It is truly amazing how much things have turned around since getting help.

I applaud all of you who are doing this the taper route or cold turkey...tried that myself several times and it never worked for me. I don't know why I am sending you all this post, other than to say that there is hope and I will be praying that all of you can beat this thing we call addiction. I know that I only have today myself and who knows what will happen tomorrow.....I can't worry about that now. All I know is that no matter what situation/problem is going on in your life today, it will get better once the drug/alcohol abuse stops. Things kind of fall into place, IN TIME, and there is hope. I realize today that if I drink or drug, the problems in my life will still be there when I sober up and may even get worse.

Anyway, my prayers are with all of you and I wish you all luck in your path to recovery....Jill