going to try to go without today - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

lisaaahubb · 01-15-2004, 05:37 AM

o.k. guys....here it goes...gonna go c/t today after almost 3 weeks of using. Before this little episode is was sober over 65 days. I am wondering how severe this c/t will be. I was using about 4 or 5 a day.....
This is sooooooooooooo discouraging, the on again off again, thing. I am sick of being sick and am really hoping that this will be the LAST time i detox from pills. I figure you gotta keep trying, one of these times i will get it right.
Got to figure out a plan to conquer those cravings this time. I think after reading rosie's post about NA, i am seriously considering it.
Well, later on i will really be needing you guys....i am already crying for no apparent reason, just disappointed in myself, as usual!
Hope everyone is well....
LISA

spark-o-cet · 01-15-2004, 05:51 AM

dont know bout you lisa but everytime i c/t it seems to get worse and worse each time and im afraid you are gonna be sick for about a week or more.good luck and fight those cravins-spark

chefob1 · 01-15-2004, 06:19 AM

i always find it puzzlin that we know what the w/d's are going to be like but we have to ask anyways....chef

rudder · 01-15-2004, 07:51 AM

Hey Lisa- It's Rudder.

Have not been here in a long time, but i saw your name & took a look at the post. I felt really bad for you to see that you went back to pills. It kinda *** up my day because I remember how hard you worked it to get off, even with all that other ***** that was going on in your life. Your tenacity in that fight really said a lot about you, & it still does.

So can I ask-- What happened? How/Why did you pick them up again? Maybe if I knew, I could help you better understand how to deal w/ the crave & mental thing. I'd like to help if you'll let me. Keep your chin up!!!

Best Wishes,
Rudder

Banker · 01-15-2004, 07:57 AM

Lisa - we are all behind you... I'm scared to ask but how are things w/your husband?

You can get off of these pills. You've done it before and can do it again! Keep us posted and I'm praying for you SO much!!!