Oh, Michelle, hope I got your attention. You don't have to write a word...beyond "hi"... just so we all know you are hanging in there. I know I speak for all of us, your buddies, when I say you matter a WHOLE lot to all of us.
Alice etal (PS. fighting the good fight at the same point you're at)
I'm also concerned about her Alice. Wonder what's going on? Michelle, you know we, of all people, will not judge you so please post whatever you are going thru, okay? We're all such worriers! I think it will help you to get whatever is upsetting you, off your chest. I hope to see a post from you by tonite or tomorrow, kay?!
Michelle - just say hello or if you would really like to talk, please, please do. We miss you and are worried. I won't fuss... I just care about you - we all do and we need to know you are o.k.
Guys - remember last time when her 'internet time' was suspended for doing something that her husband found out about??? I hope this isn't the case. I pray that she is doing o.k. Michelle - we are praying for you and you pray too, o.k.? I know you already are!
I have "lost track of time" I guess. My little one has ear infections in both ears and has not been sleeping (which means mommy doesn't sleep) and ofcourse, dealing with all the "other."
Back on a "detox" at home- using the sub for about five days and then going to see what happens. It is so tough ya'll and I feel like I am just going round and round and a vicious, repetitive, never-ending cycle.
Today, is my fourth day on about 4mg of sub (I only have about six 8mg tablets left) so I can't keep "jumping back and fourth" because I am about to run out of sub and then I'll be "up the creek with no paddle." So, this time, I have to make this work. If not, I am going to have to sit down with hubby and discuss some rehab options- I don't know what else to do?
I have just hated to come here, too, knowing I have given others advice to stay clean and have failed myself- feels a little hypocritical! So, bear with me!
Alice, you mentioned you are in the same boat? Are you totally off the vics? I am sorry I have been so wrapped up in me that I have not checked on all of you guys. SHAME ON ME!!! I'll make a better effort to atleast be there for ya'll even if I don't want to "go there" with me (if that makes sense)!
I love each of you and truly thank you for your concern,