Re: danndees are you still out there?
kelleigh,hi, thanks for caring..heres my story of why and how i quit:
Everyone I knew kept telling me I was forgetting everything. I would ask my son where he was and he would say "mom, I told you before I left I was going to baseball game" I really had no recall of cconversation but husband heard him.This started happening alot. My husband planned on taking this week coming up off so I could quit. Then I went to emergency room because of not crapping for 8 days and while waiting for test results to come back I prayed to God to please let the results come back ok. I promised God I would never take the pill again. Well, I came home and my husband tried to talk me into waiting until now so he could be home with me but I refused because I didn"t tell God I would quit in a couple weeks, I told him never again. Just think I would just now be starting the withdraws had I waited..So glad I didn"t. I pretty much always knew it wasn't right but at the same time it felt so right. I would always talk myself into it being ok because I thought I wasn't getting high off of it.
The funniest thing is that the whole time I was going through w/d I didn't want a pill. Now that I feel ok, I actually had thought today of hmm. that pill sounds nice right about now. I am wondering if maybe I was getting a lil buzz off the thing. I think I was..Never really wanted to admit that to anyone including myself.
Thats my story of why I quit...I know for a fact had I not promised God to quit, I would've taken pill to stop the withdraws. I also know that if I had any idea of what the w/d's were like I would've never made that promise to him but I did, so noone ever has to worry about me ever taking one again..Hope your journey is a continued success. You should be so proud of yourself. I am telling you that you have to be one strong person to keep off the methadone after going through trouble for soooooooo long. I would like to think that I would be that strong but I don't think I could.. I hope one day you find something to help your back that doesn't have to mess with the brain chemistry. talk to you later...