Today is the 1st day I did not really cry. I did have a few tears sneak thru here and there but over all I think I did good today. I even had a 2 hr conversation with 'x' boyfriend and did very good. Better than the last few days and better than I would have 1 week ago!
Flygirl - I think I have found a CODA group.... I'm going tomorrow @ 6:30pm EST.
Neveragain - I can see he has feeling for me but would rather let me go if it would help me. And My X-husband did a very good abuse number on me. I think this is one of the causes for my boyfriend leaving. I think, I was pushing him away while I was trying to get closer to him. He said he wants to be friends and after I get myself help and am doing much better we may try again. He made a point so say he 'was not closeing the doors to our future, just the future as he saw it now'. He is willing to help me if it is in his power. I told him to be honest, truthful, donot hold back, and stop me if he sees bad habits surfacing.
I don't like the person that I have become and I really want to change! I do reallize this will be a live long struggle to over come, but I'm hopeful. I wish I knew how long to see big changes.