Re: To Stillfrommy
THANK YOU NIKKA!
Your post really touched me, I mean that! I thought I was alone but I know now that is not true. I ordered last week from a Online company and I WILL NOT pick it up, I am so done. I went to Borders over the weekend and I brought a book by elizabeth wurtzel called Now, more about a addiction its a true story so you really feel like you can relate to her. I almost read the whole thing in my car, reading also helps to distract my brain from Norco.
I did not think I would be able to wean myself, I did it. I went from 8-10 pills a day to only 4 Sat and Sun, Today will be only 3 and Tomorrow 3, then 2, 2, 1,1, NONE! I know I am prolonging the w/d but I feel it will not be as bad if I am down to a smaller dose. I was tempted to page a dentist over the weekend to get a few, I did not do it. I am sick of lying, spending money on these stupid pills.
Its true that our bodies get used to the chemical so much that our body does not produce it anymore, once the drug is gone our brains are like, why did you do that to me? Punish us for it. I am lethargic, stomach issues, rls last night. I am actually not as moody, I am surprised at that one, I always thought they put me in a better mood, I think it was the other way around, I feel more emotion now, I always felt numb before, like I did not care about anything. I am happy about that. Once the w/d is over, I will work on my brain to get better.
Do you think I should go to NA? I really would not want anyone to see me that I know. I feel I need counsling of some sort. I even would just go sit with a social worker or anyone really. How do you get these drugs you are talking about? Would I have to see my reg Dr for them? I am so ashamed to tell him as he gave me pills 120vic with one refill, I am not going to get the refill, its due Today, I am not going to pick it up! Could I just find a addiction Dr and see him and not my reg Dr?
Thanks again Nikka! You are an inspiration to quit and be free....
Last edited by stillfromny; 06-01-2004 at 05:18 AM.