DAY 3 OF MY HYDRO DETOX!!!
Well, I have made it to day 3!!! I did get a little help yesterday from my doctor, who gave me Clonidine Patch and Gabitril to help me get some sleep. Although I only got about 4-5 hours of sleep last night, the majority of the "cobwebs" are now gone from my brain and when I awake in the AM, I feel clear-headed and feel much better.
My appetite has even come back a little. I couldn't eat anything for the last 2 days (except Gatorade and water)...I just didn't have an appetite. This morning, however, I feel better and had some cereal.
I think I'm gonna make it!!!! and I would like to thank those of you who helped me on these Boards!!!
It's funny, but during my 3 days of detox, it's been a bit of a "retreat" for me. I finally had the time to contemplate my future, my family and my health. My pupils are normal size for the first time in over 2 years!!!
Knock on wood, if things keep progressing like this, I will be back at work Monday....with a clear head!!!
Thomas63
day 4 was the first day I started UP the hill,as you read on my string you replied to.
On day 4,I think I actually started volunteering for Chores in the detox center(It is an in-patient 30 day program as well,but my insurance would only pay for detox)
I worked the 12 step program to escape a horrible drug addiction back in the 80's.I had a powerful experience doing the steps exactly as they are laid out in the AA big book.I went from a homeless,dealing,stealing,lying SOB to a Married father of two,coaching little league and being in a trade union.
As time passed,I became disillusioned and began to drift away from doing "the work" as they call it,that is writing inventory and continuing to make amends,and expand spiritually.
After a surgery in '99 I began to use Hydro,not for pain,but to blot out the seeming futility of my job,my fear of being a poor father,and my frustrations in dealing with my wife(normal stuff....I just stopped using my "tools")
This time(the last 2 years especially) there was no high drama.My family is in tact,I haven't stolen,robbed,beaten or hurt anyone......just sneaking around and lying.....I suppose I stole in the sense of using family money to aquire more Hydro,and my lethargy had impacts I have yet to fathom.I was 10K in the black when I started to use,and I'm 30K in the red.....see! I'm still in denial!!!
So.....I'm starting on page one of the "Doctors Opinion" and going to work my way through again.I remember being really happy,whole,and feeling as if my life had purpose then.I never attended many of the meetings,as very few were about,or focused on the 12 step portion.....mostly modern white knuckling techniques.Reading the book and doing the steps is enough to find that spiritual experience they speak of(they wrote the book BEFORE there was such a thing as a meeting....they named the group after the book,not vice-versa as some would believe) Fellowship is very important,though this board is probably a partial if not full replacement(when people write they have to construct their ideas better,and tend not to glamorize their history)
I am not an alcoholic,so I replace the word with "addict" as I read through,and see if the statements and questions apply to me.
Stay in touch with a physician,as your condition should be monitored for the first couple of weeks.
Stay in touch with me,as you seem to have about the same starting time for abstinence as I do.I could use a recovery buddy or two...or ten!!!!
day 4 was the first day I started UP the hill,as you read on my string you replied to.
On day 4,I think I actually started volunteering for Chores in the detox center(It is an in-patient 30 day program as well,but my insurance would only pay for detox)
I worked the 12 step program to escape a horrible drug addiction back in the 80's.I had a powerful experience doing the steps exactly as they are laid out in the AA big book.I went from a homeless,dealing,stealing,lying SOB to a Married father of two,coaching little league and being in a trade union.
As time passed,I became disillusioned and began to drift away from doing "the work" as they call it,that is writing inventory and continuing to make amends,and expand spiritually.
After a surgery in '99 I began to use Hydro,not for pain,but to blot out the seeming futility of my job,my fear of being a poor father,and my frustrations in dealing with my wife(normal stuff....I just stopped using my "tools")
This time(the last 2 years especially) there was no high drama.My family is in tact,I haven't stolen,robbed,beaten or hurt anyone......just sneaking around and lying.....I suppose I stole in the sense of using family money to aquire more Hydro,and my lethargy had impacts I have yet to fathom.I was 10K in the black when I started to use,and I'm 30K in the red.....see! I'm still in denial!!!
So.....I'm starting on page one of the "Doctors Opinion" and going to work my way through again.I remember being really happy,whole,and feeling as if my life had purpose then.I never attended many of the meetings,as very few were about,or focused on the 12 step portion.....mostly modern white knuckling techniques.Reading the book and doing the steps is enough to find that spiritual experience they speak of(they wrote the book BEFORE there was such a thing as a meeting....they named the group after the book,not vice-versa as some would believe) Fellowship is very important,though this board is probably a partial if not full replacement(when people write they have to construct their ideas better,and tend not to glamorize their history)
I am not an alcoholic,so I replace the word with "addict" as I read through,and see if the statements and questions apply to me.
Stay in touch with a physician,as your condition should be monitored for the first couple of weeks.
Stay in touch with me,as you seem to have about the same starting time for abstinence as I do.I could use a recovery buddy or two...or ten!!!!
Hang in there
Baseball65
Thanks Baseball65. Let's stay in touch over the Boards. It does sound like we have some similarities in our lives. I am the father of 2 great kids (Boy-8 and Daughter-5) and a great wife of 20 years. I am 41 years old and a Little League Coach.
I can't really say how much my addiction cost me; both in terms of money and loss of "life". I estimate it cost me a whole lot over these 2+ years. I know I was spending about $500/month for the pills (from internet sources and legit prescriptions), but, more important, I was living in a haze. My personal life was running at probably 50-60% of it's potential. And this transcends across all segments of my life (family, work, physical, spiritual, etc.). Over these last 3 days, I have really reflected on these issues and I am ready to improve myself in each category.
Thanks for responding back and please keep in touch. Let's try and post to each other at least once per day over the next week or so, as I think this will be a really critical time for both of us.
By the way, I assume from your handle, you have a love for baseball. Me too! In fact, my son and I stopped in Atlanta last Friday to see the Red Sox play the Braves. He's a big Marlins fan (I live in South Florida and we got to go to 2 World Series Games last year, which was a dream come true for both of us!). I am originally from Pittsburgh, but my Bucs have been dismal with no signs of recovery.
Have a great Saturday!!!
Thomas63
Congratulations you two. I am so happy to hear that life has found you. I am a great believer in the Twelve Step Programs. I attend NA. I am praying for you. I think you guys would be great support for each other. Miracles happen in recovery.
Congratulations you two. I am so happy to hear that life has found you. I am a great believer in the Twelve Step Programs. I attend NA. I am praying for you. I think you guys would be great support for each other. Miracles happen in recovery.
Thank you so much for your support!!! It really means a great deal to me!
Thomas63
Day 3 Of My Hydro Detox!!! 
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