just need to talk... - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

daisye14 · 08-04-2004, 09:48 PM

Hi everyone today is official day 1(again)and I feel so down and depressed constantly urging for a pill.This is sooo hard

honestly I would rather be run over by a bus anything but this I know what your thinking "Drama Queen"..lol..no really this sux.I must stay strong my 25th B-Days this saturday(august 7)big birthday half a century

Anyways Michelle Belle how are you?How was your surgery?I have been praying for you You will be ok you are strong you will heal and hopefully everything will look ok because you are suuuupperrr mommm!!Hit me back when you feel up to it, so I know you are alright....and Lisa how are you hun?and your doggies?I love dogs too I would love a chouwawa(mjr sp)they are so cute like the one on leagally blonde lol.Anyways I am so proud of you.You truly are a great insperation.Oh well off to bed gonna try and sleep.luv,kell

zandy · 08-05-2004, 05:17 AM

25th birthday = 1/2 century?..how about 1/4 century?..anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

goddessgrl65 · 08-05-2004, 06:28 AM

Happy B'day..its a big one..lots of changes coming up in life-and i wish you the best..
Im sorry you are hurting-there is a great article in New York times-on addiction that TwinLynn-pointed out yesterday..i read it-search suboxone on their site..Have you considered this med?
Its really informative-and explains the cravings etc..that addicts experience trying to get clean-and relapse..and how suboxone works on this issue..
Thats the main problem-you stop-crave-relapse..cos the pathways in your brain are changed-from habitual use-so its near impossible to feel pleasure-
To go thru this process can take years-thats how someone like myself-who had 2 yrs sober-white knuckled/depressed-that entire time and ultimately relapsed.
Its not like that for everyone -what drugs/how much/length of time..etc-there are variables-
But suboxone worked for me-and reading your post reminded me of all those attempts at kicking-how those first days are so tough-
My prayers are w/ you-try to stay strong..
Check out the article-its a good one..
GGrl65

mernee · 08-05-2004, 09:23 AM

Yes, I agree with the others. I justed posted to Baseball, that relapse is a natural part of change....have you ever tried dieting, lol. I was addicted for 28+ years. I really believed after trying to quit 100+ times that I would be an addict forever..... I then started to tweek my recovery program. Every time I relapsed I would sit down and decided what I needed to do different, sometime they were very small things. After many times, I finally figured out a program that worked for me. I have been clean now, a number of years. Just dust yourself off, figure out what your trigger was and get going again. I ended up having to get an very intense program. Congratulations on Day One.........

Christin · 08-05-2004, 09:34 AM

I wanted to get on suboxone so badly when I quit the last time...it seems to be the magic answer for so many. Day 1 sucks...so do days 2, 3, 103

I personally never found ANYTHING that made the withdrawal symptoms more tolerable...except sleeping through them. But I could never sleep either, without large doses of benzos and even then the amount that should have knocked me out for a week would only allow 30 minutes or so of sleep. But what a relief that was!

I've come to believe that attitude has a lot to do with it. My attitude was horrible and I think the withdrawals were feeding on all of the negativity, etc. Easier said than done, but try to remember that detoxing is temporary...this too shall pass, and think about how wonderful it will be to have a life without being chained to pills! Good luck!