Don't get discouraged fisherman by stella's 45 day thingy. True, the brain receptors take 90 days before they get back to normal, but it doesn't mean that you don't feel a little better everyday. Just takes a while because Sub sticks to your receptors like mud. Not only that, mostly the physical WD is gone, but its the mental BS that you go through within those 90 days that makes it harder.
You're doing great. Expect to be weak..Kick back the whole weekend and be a couch potato. That's all you can really do except exercise! Take vitamins!
I'm also a chronic pain sufferer, but I also cannot go back to the addiction. Its an evil that consumes you. The WDs make you see that light. Don't be so hard on yourself. You are absolutely doing the right thing by getting off the Sub.
Fisherman, I think almost ALL of us are in your boat (pardon the baaaad pun!). The false 'high' of getting another prescription (with refills!)....the dive when the momentary euphoria is over. We will all support you no matter where your battle takes you. No one is judged here. But I for one am very inspired by your courage and determination. I will take that 'spirit' into my own battle, soon.
I am taking detailed notes and ideas on what not to do when you get off of Suboxone. I hope I can be the help to others as you all have been to me.
I am still scared of relapsing. Day 10 has not been a magic day for me yet. Maybe it will be day 11.
What I am scared of most is next week I have hugh responsibilites at work and my mind has to be clear. I can't sneak out at lunch because of a bad day. This will be my greatest trial. My wife also had a bad mammogram Thursday and goes Tuesday for a biopsy. I feel like a heal that I have not had the energy to be there for her. She has always been there for me.
It just makes me hate thoose little devil pills even greater. You loose site of all that is good in your life and place them as the center of your life.
If I ever make it through this, I promise I am going to be the Husband , Father and friend that the last five years have robbed me from. I will never be as self centered and always put others before me. I laugh and joke and be the person that I used to be.
How are you doing today? You say Day 10 has not been a magic day, but I believe it should be better than yesterday and the day before and the day before....Right?
You are making great plans for sobriety. I also felt that when I was on opiates and in WD's. I knew that when I was on them, my life was being robbed away to pills. How disgusting! You are absolutely right about losing sight to everything. I almost lost everything while on them, but luckily I didn't. I was neglecting my daughter and everything else in my life. They're truly evil!