Re: Need Advice ASAP- The rehab wants me there NOW, I want to go on the 17th
3 more days! Waiting to talk to HR now. PLEASE... Pray for me.. pray that I say the right things, and pray for there understanding, pray I work really hard, and pray I will still have a job.
Sincerely,
Sara (scared Sara) (Please God,,, be with me!)
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"I believe that friends lift us up when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."
-Sara
Re: Need Advice ASAP- The rehab wants me there NOW, I want to go on the 17th
Dear Sara...just saw your last post regarding HR...Hey, because of my
position I have dealt with HR on many issues,including the one you are
currently in discussion with your HR....I have had many employees go
thru EAP ,HR.etc..for a lot of reasons including what you are dealing
with-all I can say is with ADA , HIPAA,etc...HR has to be very carefull
and accomadating when it comes to these issues...Sara I have been
praying and saying " special devotions to the appropriate saints "
specifically regarding your HR,position,etc...I got you covered in prayers
and devotions- as there are A LOT of saints when it comes to catholism..
Lovin ya gal and with ya all the way till the day you leave,while you are
there,and when ya return !....I am here for ya today/tonight and all thru
the week until ya leave..In addition, the one " inpatient treatment facility"
I am familiar with was very strict altho they did allow internet access to
"..approved sites by the attending doc,addictionalist, and counselors.."
Re: Need Advice ASAP- The rehab wants me there NOW, I want to go on the 17th
Sara"my number one mom"
I have been following your thread since day 1. Everything points you to the rehab center and it appears to be God's plan for you. I know you are scared, angry and all the emotions are racing through your mind right now. Anger and fear can be a good thing and faces anyone who follows the road that you have taken. These emotions in the right direction can be a awesome motivtor for you as you take the journrey toward recovery.
I make it a point to pray for you daily and will be here for you all the way down this road. From your very first post, you have always keep the well being of your chidren as top priorty. You never fail to amaze me. This disease is usually so self centering and you always think of others first. You aked the question in one of your posts" who is Sara?".
I can tell you who Sara is.............................She is a wonderful mother, a good and caring friend and has a heart as big as Texas.
With a considerable amount of HR experience, I can tell you that you should be ok at work. It does matter about the size of your company as to which laws will affect you. I know that I would rather have a employee come to me wanting to fix a problem and have the desire to be a better employee than one who sticks their head in the sand. It takes a lot of guts to admit to the problem and they should work hard to help you.
Re: Need Advice ASAP- The rehab wants me there NOW, I want to go on the 17th
So far so good, Sara ,
Given the way you have been gently guided so far as you prepare for rehab, I have a feeling that HR's reaction will fall in line much the same way the other things related to this have; however, knowing you, I understand that you will only be able to "exhale" when you know for sure . I'm so happy for you about the funds, the reaction of the ex, and your being able to rest assured that your kids will be fine and safe through this.
It's nice to see you aren't so angry anymore, yet I'm glad for you that you feel those things and allow yourself TO feel now. Thanks for sharing all the different sides of you so I can know you better! I think it's important that you just give yourself permission to feel and react to what you feel in whatever way that it comes out, you know? As addicts we spend so much time either refusing to feel certain things or pushing or covering up our feelings with our drugs, and then we become someone other than who we really are. It's like you said when you wrote that you want to meet the old Sara again and find out who she was and who she is going to be.
It's got to be scarey to all of a sudden have this built up well of emotions come spilling over and out of you recently...that's how life is for me now, Sara, a lot of different feelings every day and the new and freeing reactions that come with saying it's okay to feel this way...it's normal to feel this way. It's all good in the end, though. I'm evem happy to be able to feel anger and sadness because if I didn't, like I said in once before, I wouldn't be able to tell the difference. To experience joy we have to experience the darker emotions so we remain human and not become robot-like, unfeeling and uncaring.
Wow, that was pretty awesome that you got to see a more humane (or should it be human? LOL!) side of your ex! I guess it's always surprising to see how others react to our addictions and then how different--good and bad--people can be when it comes to when we decide it's time to heal ourselves of our addiction. While I was heavily addicted, I had boyfriends whom I truly believe, now that I think back on it all, wanted me to stay an addict. This enabled them to be a "Knight in Shining Armor" who could take care of me if sick, or better yet...come to my aid with pills! Then when I was feeling better, well...let's just say they felt better, too. So they weren't helping me, they were only looking out for themselves really because a happy female addict is a more "intimate" addict, you know what I mean?
Well, I know that this thread has gotten very long and it's probably hard for even you...the leading lady , to catch all the posts that have been written here, but I'm wondering if you saw my last looooooooong one to you? It's at the very top of page 16. I asked you some (okay, a lot of!) questions and told you how much I will miss you, but I'm saving the teary goodbye till Thursday night...gee, I just realized the day you are beginning your journey (Sept. 17th) is my son's birthday (he'll be 16 !) and also the day he began his journey through this thing we call "Life." He has navigated well on his trip so far, and I only hope his life continues to be full of amazing things.
So just like I wish for you--I hope your upcoming journey amazes you and knocks your socks off, kiddo!
Much love,
Dallas Alice
p.s. May the HR "powers that be" be good to you today!
Last edited by DallasAlice; 09-14-2004 at 11:54 AM.
Re: Need Advice ASAP- The rehab wants me there NOW, I want to go on the 17th
Dallas Alice- I LOVE YOU. You really had an effect on me when you said "you allowed us to see all sides of Sara" It amazes me how thoughtful you can be and how you never miss ANYTHING in your posts.
I am hitting the brick wall and your right- can't exhale til I speak w/ HR.
Still holding my breath. Boy I could really use some "Dallas time" while Im in treatment. I know I cannot access the internet, although they let you recieve mail b/c it's like a form of recovery.
Chris, Your prayers and hope and healing as well as protection is greatly apreciated. You are and always will be my close friend. You are so loved!
Fisherpard- It gave me "chills" when you said you read my post which said I don't know who Sara is anymore, and your reply was you know- a caring and considerate Mom who always puts her Children first. WOW!
That made me feel good for someone else to notice.
Still havent talked to HR.
They have been busy all day!
Love, (my eyes are filled w/tears of joy)
Sara
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-Sara
Re: Need Advice ASAP- The rehab wants me there NOW, I want to go on the 17th
T w o M o r e D a y s ! ! !
I had my way with Walmart last night. I went shopping and acted like I was going away for a long time! I bought Tide, 4 bottles of Downey, Lysol, antibac wipes for hands, lysol wipes, 5 boxes of Thermo care heated back stickers, girlie products for that "special time", a 500 minute phone card, batteries for my walkman, and lotion. Today I pick up new contacts and get my glasses fixed, pick up my dry cleaning, pick up hair color from the salon (they are sweet enough to give me hair color "to go"), pay my cell phone bill, pay my cable an internet bill, pay my electric bill, and my daughter's day care for the next month.
I just wanted to say hi to everyone today. And she what everyone is up to. I just want to know all is well.
My girls are doing okay- they know Im leaving to "get my back fixed"
Mommy is scared and trying to get every kiss I can get and give to my lil' girls. Im missing them already. Im going to make it!
A big hello from TEXAS!
Love, Sara
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"I believe that friends lift us up when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."
-Sara
Re: Need Advice ASAP- The rehab wants me there NOW, I want to go on the 17th
We're about to have a hurricane soon and I wanted to wish you good luck at Laha. Post us when you get back. Serenity is right around the corner for you. You are a very smart lady.
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. I'm so happy for you about the funds, the reaction of the ex, and your being able to rest assured that your kids will be fine and safe through this. 
