Re: My story and Concerns Thanks Goddess
I just read your post, and honestly...I can really hear the Oxy talking. I know that many of us here would give anything to have had the presence of mind to stop at a level of 60mg [Or equivelent of other opiates] Oxy per day.
You need to slam on the brakes NOW and get out. It will only get worse...much worse. No matter how badly you think you have messed up, I guarantee you things will get exponentially worse if you continue down this road. When I was at 60 mgs of Oxy per day, I was still functioning normally with it and was enjoying it, but it had me good and I didn't realize it until much further down the road. You really are very lucky and very smart to have started asking questions now, so please take the next step.
I don't know your details, if anyone close to you knows of your addiction, but get help. Tapering from Oxy by yourself will be extremely difficult if not impossible. I'm not saying you are weak or can't do it, but that drug is the devil itself, and it will try everything in it's vast power not to let you go.
So come on - start the recovery ball rolling. Get to an NA or AA meeting, start tapering, get into rehab, whatever is appropriate for you as a first step, ok?
Good luck to you. And YES...do see this as a sign.
And to others on the board: I see this post has been viewed a few times now, so come one and give SH some support! We've got somebody right on the edge here, who doesn't need to go down as far as many of us have. Please put in your thoughts, experiences, warnings, love!