You have come to the right place-because-there are success stories here-
Many people have found there way out on these boards-it makes sense-many addicts are secretive about there problem.But we can all support each other-w/o fear..its a great place..w/some excellent info/intelligent/compassionate people.
Now-how can i help you?
You need to detox-first..
Can you take 5-7 days off-during vacation and get yourself into detox?
There are other options-for outpatient detox-including suboxone/methadone-in a drs. office-
These meds will taper you off the hydro-medicate you-to help w/ the withdrawals-but most importantly you need to be prepared for after your detox-
You are not weak-the drugs take over-every part of your life-and opiates are sooo addictive-you literally change your brain chemistry.
So-don't beat yourself up-you got your whole life ahead of you-get off the vikes now-so you can live your life..it just gets worse.
Your tolerance builds-the obsession gets more insidious-and it can lead to harder opiates-H/oxys-you know..
You can access fREE treatment-many detoxs will provide free beds to uninsured patients-and students-
you can call your local hospital and get info-for detox clinics in your area-
if you have insurance-call them-ask for substance abuse care-your all set.
Im here-if you need help-and im sure you'll get more replys to help you-
Start w/ looking into detox-and most importantly-aftercare-meeting-AA/NA or therapy/counceling for support.
hope this helps you-