Hi, all. It's Lila again.
I've faltered down the road to relapse just as many of you have done before. I'm out of my Lortabs right now and back on the roller coaster of forced CT's with no relief in sight until my doc opens back up next Tuesday. Even then I'm not guaranteed a refill.
Anyway, I have happy news to deliver - I've landed a great-paying job with a wonderful bunch of folks who are friendly and treat me with respect. A far cry from my LAST job over a year ago that more often than not sent me home in tears. I've only been working for a week so I hope I can keep the positive attitude going about the ol' grind for as long as possible.
My fiance is THRILLED with the extra income and is already planning for buying a house next year and paying off ALL our old debt.
The reason I thought of you guys today is this: getting through day 2 is rough. I'm feeling very anxious right now and am a little scared of going through one of my classic panic attacks so I lay down in bed to relax and watch a little Food Network (gourmet food is always a good distraction) when I remembered the plaque my mom bought me a month ago when I was crying to her about my W/D's.
It's a lovely wooden plaque from this site and I think that, since they are relatively cheap at $17.47, everyone on this board should buy one: http://www.rusticdecorating.com/-268.html. It reads very simply "This too shall pass" and you can choose from a variety of colors and styles.
I hung it over the doorway in my bedroom so it's one of the first things I see when I wake up in the morning and I can gaze at it throughout the day. You would be AMAZED the relief and piece of mind such a simple item can bring you when you feel like ripping your hair out or crying.
Just wanted to share my little discovery with all of you in case it can bring some calm to your lives as well.
Take care and I'll be checking in.