Sorry ive been MIA-lots going on..
Are you detoxing now?
I don't know if neurontin is used for detox-why do you take them?Clonipin could be used for anxiety-but you should be careful and not overuse them.
Do you have health insurance?
Could you take 5 days out of town?
I know the feeling of wanting to feel again-(does that make sense..lol?)
Drugs esp.0piates-kill the highs/lows-creativity-they sort of plain you off-into nothingness-but if you are in w/d you will be feeling again-unfortunately w/d bring heavy emotions to the surface-nevermind the pain/creeps/etc..
Ive done home detox so many times thru my addiction-but i personally found in patient to be best-safe/supervised/medicated-etc..
I think if you just opened up to your family-tell them you have been taking pills-and you feel that they have become a problem-but you want to be medically supervised to detox-wouldn't they support you?
I had to come 'clean' to my family-they were supportive initally-take a chance-you feel alone cos you have this heavy hidden secret-you need support-please keep me updated..