Twinlynn

Hey, Philster!!!

I thought there was nothing that would make me feel uplifted on this Monday morning, having to be back at work and restart the engine. But--then I saw YOUR post!!! And, see? I'm grinning again!!!

Yes, thanks, my twin and I are doing great on the Subutex. It still astounds me that this drug--a chemical that does not create either euphoria or super-charged energy--could do so much to keep me on the straight and narrow...and to lift that depressive fog I could never quite shake off...even with antidepressants.

I'd just come to an absolute stand-still in life. Even though I am normally not someone who needs to be out and about every minute--those oxys and hydros had managed to close down my world to just one small apt, with only my pills as invited guests! And, boy, were those pills demanding guests! Initially I'd invite in two for the day....then, before I knew it--two more would insist on entry--til finally 8-10 more pushy "guests" were crowding in! Those pills never knew when it was time to leave! LOL!!

Anyway, I am feeling so "normal" now. And "normal" is great! I never realized how agitated the opiates made me feel. There was never a time my brain felt "calm". It is so nice to be able to concentrate on my family, friends and interests again. (****, I will never, ever forget my ski trip (an annual event) out West two years ago...when I was down to just about nothing with my pills....You haven't lived until you've skied down a steep, icy mountain in the full flush of an outta-control depressive, anxiety-ridden withdrawal!! Arrggghhh!!) I can assure you that skiing (which is my favorite thing in the world) is NOT the sort of diversion to keep you busy in full withdrawal! LOL!

Anyway, life is just soooo much better now. So much to enjoy and look forward to...like my next ski trip! And, I am back to reading a few books a week, doing some sketching, adding to my ski figurines and mt. book collections.....all the stuff I used to enjoy before that whole nightmare started.

It is so nice of you to call me out and say hello--I never miss any of your posts! (And, hey, I see Lisaaaahub is back today! Hi, Lisa!)

Funny you should write today, 'cause I have an appt with my addictionologist, who prescribes the Subutex. She wants to hear how I've been doing....and she is very pleased that Sub. has relieved my depression. She says depression is nearly always a good part of the reason people rely on opiates. I'll let you know how the appt. goes.

You do so much for all the "newbies" by supporting them and cheering them on. You were one of the first posters I read two years ago! My idol!! LOLOL!

By the way--I didn't know you were a former New Yorker! Hail! (How did you wander off so far from here?? Do you still have a passport?)

your fellow pal, Lynn :-)