Feeling of "Nothingness"... - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

OffTrack · 03-23-2006, 04:37 PM

Hello All,

I am new to this forum and this is my first post, so bear with me if this has been covered. At this point, I just want to hear the answer from other, directed towards me.

I have been using Norco's for the past 2 years and finally decided to put an end to it 3 days ago. My dosages were never super high. I started taking 1 at a time, 3 times a day for about the first year. Then after that, I was able to get a prescription, 120 at a time from an online pharmacy. Well, when this happened, I began taking 1.5-2 at a time, 3 times a day. The max I ever took in a day was 6 and I did this only a handful of times. Honestly, my desire to make them last longer overpowered my desire to take more of them. I just couldnt imagine running out of those little yellow devils. The psychological impact of just popping the pill instantly made me feel great. There were even times I would find a half pill laying around after I ran out of my refills and instantly, I felt relief. THEY ARE THE DEVIL! This much I am sure of.

Well, anyways, now to my questions from other users...

- How long did you guys have the feeling of "nothing" after you stopped taking them? Right now I am in a constant state where I feel like I have no control of my thinking. I seriously cant think to save my life. I feel like I am sort of outside my body in a way. It's a feeling of "nothingness", simple as that. Hard to explain, but I'm sure there are others on here that have felt the same way.

- When does the aching go away?

- How long will I "feel" this physical dependency?

Thanks in Advance
-OffTrack

chefob1 · 03-23-2006, 05:18 PM

i used to take up to 50 pills a day....i met a guy whose tolerance was at 120 pills a day////....it is self destructive....nothin positive...i used opiates for many years...anythin i could take...saw folks die..od....best bet i can offer is really find your higher power and realize you have no control over your addiction...last stab at detox i came off 120mg of methadone 5mg a week....and it took me a solid month to realize there is life after drugs...seek any assistance you can find...i hit a/a meetings but in was a spiritual interevntion for me...im 46 and have takin drugs since i was 14...it ruined my life,consumed all my time and money....i thank the lord im alive,sober and can relate to you today.....it took me 32 years to recover....pray you wont let it take ya that long....what a waste of my many years but im here to give you teastament that there is life after addiction and it is beautufl....you need to really come to terms with your addiction and realize you have to walk away from that lifestyle and your life will get so much better...chef

butterfly64 · 03-23-2006, 08:06 PM

The "nothingness" never goes away, I am thinking. I have been clean from oxys... LOTS AAND LOTS!!!!!!(I probably should be dead..).. and I still think about "my beloved oxys" every day!...... I am kidding.. about the beloved part.... but I do still fight this EVERY DAY! It does get easier..but you have to realize that...... Just because one person experienced one thiing, does NOT mean you will or won't. Take your recovery ONE MOMENT AT A TIME! And beleive me, each one will persent it's own obstacles/opportunities.......
The only other thing that comes to mind is..... Don't expect too much from yourself, too soon..... but don't let yourself go beyond, either.

Good Luck......Keep us posted!

mpvt · 03-24-2006, 06:31 AM

Hi Offtrack:Withdrawls will take up to a week before you start to feel better.Once you get past the 4-5th day then you start to really notice a difference.It's important that you start exercising as soon as possible,this can be just going for a walk a couple times a day.When you exercise you stimulate endorphin production which will give you that sense of euphoria that we all love.Take care and don't be afraid to look into support groups.....Dave

Thrombo · 03-24-2006, 10:04 AM

My feeling of nothingness lasted about a solid month, 4-5 weeks at least... I was bored with everything, and just felt empty. It does get better and eventually you feel better and that empty spot goes away.

Take care!