Grrr I just lost the whole response I typed somehow. Anyway...
Remember that was us not too long ago. Now we are on the outside looking in and it is so frustrating to see someone you love and care about throwing their life away. There was a time about a month ago where our loved ones were wondering why we couldn't get our you know what together! Now that lifestyle seems so beyond anything I can comprehend right now.
Before John passed away, we would have a frequent phone conversation about my decision to come to Hawaii to get clean.
Although I loved him very much and wanted to get back together with him when drugs were out of the picture, I knew that if I kept myself in a place where I knew way too many people, I would have died right along with him. I knew it and I told everybody that was the reason I left Connecticut. I was killing myself and I got fed up with it. All of my friends were addicted to Oxy and it is so beyond sad that it took my boyfriend's death( regardless of how he died) for everyone to open their eyes.
What I guess I am trying to say to you is maybe you need to just stop associating with everyone that has anything to do with drugs(that you are aware of). It will hurt to break of some of those relationships but it will be better for you in the long run.
I know you were taking pills privately and not snorting lines of Oxy with a bunch of so-called friends but it's all the same. Tough love, I guess you can call it. Sure I had amazing times with some of those people back home but it's the same as what I was saying in the Ecstasy thread....it's all fake.
You have risen above the junk and you should be VERY proud of your strength. Don't let your friend's problem become yours. You deserve your peace because you fought hard for it.
Ok I am done rambling for now!