sad,mum

sympathise with the way you feel,because i feel that way too and it affects your whole outlook on life,it makes me a miserable person to be with,but hell they made us this way, i cant give any advice but am telling you this is normal,my daughter has been taking drugs for 7yrs and is now a chronic addict of heroin and crack,this is about the 6th time she has attempted to stay clean and is now into day 23,the longest,the last being 16,i have always explain my fears and mistrust and asked her to understand and humour me,even when i have had to apologise afterwards for mistrusting her,i even thought my behaviour was enough to send her back to drugs but when she did go back this was only the excuse she was looking for,now however she is happy to reassure and take home tests,i know the moment she has returned to drugs is the day she tels me,no i am not doing a test its an infringment of my privacy( i insist on being in the bathroom because she has hoodwinked me so many times),or i am not her social worker i have no right to be doing this,but through experience you know the signs,if they are serious about giving up there shouldnt be a problem reassuring you and as time goes on trust returns little by little,keep posting and let us know you are ok,its a wealth of information this site and someone can almost always answer your queations or give you advise and support,welcome and good luck,sad mum