Over the last month i've been having days where all i seem to want to do is cry. This lead to me smoking more, just so i could get rid of all the hopelessness. It feels like it was the only thing keeping me sane.
I've stopped yesterday and it seems like the negative thoughts are comming back with a vengence. I haven't seen the doctor yet, but I will tomorrow. I know i have the familiy history for depression, but I always hoped it was nothing. I'm not sure where i'm going with this, I just needed to vent because i'm feeling like life is so painful right now.
Understand that chemicals cause changes in the brain.... Please hang in there and after a couple days, you should be able to think more clearly. Luckily the effects of MJ don't last long, but the side effects do stay around for a bit. Tell your MD EVERYTHING..don't hold anything back. He/she needs to know all to treat you correctly. God Bless, and good luck. You can do it!!
well ovb coming off of WEED and any drug is going to cause depression, when i just quit weed coldturkey i didnt seem to have a problem, i had some depression, Anxiety, and couldnt sleep for a few days, but in time it goes away... so just be aware and know that ur depressed b/c of coming off the drug, u may not exactly be depressed just b/c ur stopping a drug, its normal for this to happen, and of course to take it away is to use again, but then ur back to where u are, it takes the pain away for a few hours, but eventually its gonna come back when u stop again, so ur best bet is to just stick through it, just be glad its nothing like oxycontin or heroin... now thats some major depression there, hang in there
I myseld don't do drugs but my husband has smoked weed for like 20 years and then got into crack for about 1 year he is now clean of it all for 16 months but when he quit he was very depressed and then he started drinking so he realized that was not helping with his depression only making it worse, he went to the doc to see what his options were and the doc perscribed him pills ..duh like that's what you need when your trying to get clean is more chemicals in ur body he started to take those and quickly got dependant on them. He really wanted to get clean so he threw those away as well so anyways don't trade 1 habit in for another
there's better treatments for depression and if you are clinically depressioned you should see a doctor, if you are like many addicts (speaking for myself especially) my depression lifted when I stopped drinking and abusing drugs. For this I needed the help of a 12 step program and have found AA/NA invaluable for my recovery. It's one thing to stop, but staying stopped is our real problem, for that we need real help; so that when our trigger issues come up we don't press the self destruct button etc.
Went to the doc today. He thought the depression was probably to do with the quitting. I think i might give therapy a shot. I feel alot better today after i got rid of my bubbler. It was hard to do since i spent about $150 on it but it was what was stopping me from accepting quitting. I know i'm going to miss it tho. Today's been the 1st day in a long time when i haven't smoked (I was never that bad, smoked only 45-60 times a month).
Keep up the good work. If my husband can quit I swear to you anyone can. He used to get up first thing in the morning and smoke it. And quiet often during the day. You can do it be strong and read these posts often for words of courage. I'm rootin for you. Here's to a drug free life. yahooo
I know someone who does wake up everyday and smoke and just cant quit its ruining his life he wont even go look for work or go to job interviews at very good companies because of drug tests and he wont even quit for that. PLEASE do this it sounds like your pretty determined and thats a great start. I think coming off any drug will cause some depression your mind is just used to that chemical and when its gone it causes depression not a professional opinion just my own experience. yes throwing that away was a great start now your not looking at it and thinking about smoking. GREAT JOB even though I know how hard that was. Just think of the extra money you'll have wont that be great! Keep up the good work and maybe take a walk or something and get your natural endorphins working and that might help with the depression gives you a natual high with out any drugs. Keep up the great work and we're all here for you keep posting and stick around it will get better. Best of luck, Kim
I also quit smoking about a month ago, I was to stubborn to admit, but I was severly depressed. I have always had an anxiety problem as well. What really helped though was I started taking Muay Thai recently, punching and kicking pads and sparring is a really good way to let out frustration or whatever that is keeping you down. Use all the negativety in your life, to fuel your positivity. So all the crap in my life, that caused me to be depressed for too long, I just vented it all out when I started training. I also met so many nice people too, and I have loads of fun now learning it. Remember keep your chin up, and I hope it helps.
My hubby is a big fan of Muay Thai and has actually just begun a Jui Jitsu class. I agree....I think it'd be a great frustration releaser and an awesome way to get in shape.
Are you a fan of the UFC show on Spike? I've started watching it with dh and have gotten to where I actually enjoy it and can watch a lot of it without covering my eyes! lol....I just hate to see a guy get really pummeled!! And I can finally spot an 'arm bar' now...where before I couldn't tell which guy was 'winning'. Anyhoo..mindless musings...congrats on your new hobby. :-)
I love that show infact we just got the hughes and gracie fight a couple of weeks ago. I too dont like to watch people get pummeled but some of them are just so cockey you cant help but to root for the other guy. So every thurs at 10pm I sit in the recliner and watch my new favorite show actually I have watched every season got into it a couple of years ago not me doing it but watching the show. Sorry about that OSO sometimes we get carried away. So how is it going? I hope your still doing good. Keep your chin up you will beat this addiction! Kim
I am new to this site and I can completely understand depression due to weed withdrawal. I have been clean for ten months but it is still really hard when it is soooo easily accessible and close by. I personally have been on and off it since I was 17 (I am 31 now) and I really truly feel like I have a love affair with really good herb. I miss every day still. I have even been thinking about joining NA even though I have a VERY hard time believing in any higher power. I also have manic depression....I am always here if you ever need to vent because I truly understand the strong desire to smoke weed on a daily basis. Perhaps you should speak to a doctor about trying St John's Wort for your depression or even an antidepressant?
I can't say that I'm in the same situation as you, but I can say that quiting pot was one of the best decisions I've made in my entire life. I started smoking it about 10 months ago, quit it cold turkey about a month ago, and I never looked back.
Somewhere around Febuary I came to a transition in my life. I began looking at the world in a whole new light. I still smoked pot then, but I started to slowly grow away from it. I looked at the blue sky and marveled at it's perfection. I still had a few down moments here and there, but I still felt more positive then I had in years.
And then one night, about a month ago, my life changed completely. I went to a frinds apartment, looking to "toke up", which I did... big mistake. I look a huge hit from a bong, then left to take a crap. I came back, and I was pretty damn high, and I should have stopped there, but no, I took another hit and everything from then on went to hell. My mouth went extemely dry and sticky... normal effect, but WAY too intense. Then my mind started racing, and I just could not stop it. I think about one thing to take my mind off of what was bothering me before, then that new thought just falls out of control. It was pure mental hell. I got up to get a drink of water and my vision was REALLY distorted, like if you ever played X-box live with a lot of people and a crappy connection. I thought the water would help, but it didn't. I sat back down, and then the mental mind****ing began again. My brother was there too, and asked me if I was alright, and patted me on the back, and then out of nowhere, I just puked like anorexic(sp?) super model.
I went to clean myself up in the bathroom, and I finally realised that pot was getting me nowhere and doing nothing for me exept covering up pains rather than making them go away. And I realised that leading a sober life was much easier and enjoyable.
Now my night didn't end there. Oh no, it got much better: puking in the Cub Foods bathroom, puking in the parking lot, puking in the toilet at home, breaking down and crying... lots of fun stuff. But now that I look back at it, the outcome was well worth the bad experience.
I'm not perfect, I still did think about lighting up a couple of times after that night, but I snapped out of it by reminding myself that I would just end up back where I started.
I guess my whole point is that there really is no need to see a doctor for depression, especially when getting off of pot. You just need to remind yourself that life is going to be much better. I would also suggest you go to the beach on a bright day and listen to some transe/techno, that always gets me in a positive mood. And the movie "What the Bleep do We Know" was really inspiring as well. This all worked for me at least.