ultram/tramadol addictive properties
I have read messages on this board before without becoming a member. I have found it very informative, and everyone seems to want to help one another.
I recently had a kidney stone, was prescribed oxy, then vicodin (only 15 each script) I have a long history of opiate abuse, but have had long periods of abstinence. After the oxy, and vics I was given Ultram by a friend to try to curb the cravings I had -even though I was not physically dependant (obviously with only 15 and 15). The first time I took Ultram I was amazed.
I felt better, energetic, no ups and downs as with opiates etc. I could take 4 in the am and 4 in the pm, as opposed to taking 4-5 percs then by noon feeling miserable, and waiting for the evening dose. I was given only enough for a few days, and found (amazingly) that it was easy to buy online, and apparently not illegal because it is not a controled substance. This has only been going on a week (ultram). I have read some of the threads on Ultram and am now terrified. It seems to be a bit like Methadone. Fortunately I have only been taking them about a week.
My question: I have been taking on average between 4-6 of 50mg tabs in the morning and 4 in the late afternoon. Now I am terrified, ****** off, feel shame since I have been straight for so long, and just cannot believe that I have found myself in this situation. I would rather be taking vics or even oxys for that matter, at least I know that I would be shaky for only a few days. So, being that I have only been taking them a week what should I prepare myself for? Should I taper to 3 am 3pm, 2 am 2 pm etc? I have a huge amount of responsibilities, job, etc. I dont know what I will do if I go into a withdrawl. But just a week taking somewhat high doses shouldnt be too bad? I would appreciate any input.