Hello to everyone!
Well I am back. I had some problems with my teeth(2 abcesses, a shattered tooth, some cavities, etc.) Well needless to say it became really painful. It felt like my teeth had their own heartbeat, I couldnt eat, sleep, talk, think.
So I finally went to the dentist and they gave me lortabs. I thought Iwould be able to handle it, just take them for the pain and be done with them. But it didnt quite work that way. I took the whole script, was still in pain, and went back to buying them off the street
It was really terrible. I felt awful about myself. I wanted to come here and talk to you guys but I felt so guilty and ashamed. I didnt know what to do.
However, there was some good that came from this. I really realized that that was not the way I wanted to live my life! I researched all of my options and found a dental clinic that does dental work for half price. I went and took care of the shattered tooth and got antiobiotics for the abcess. When they asked if I was allergic to any medicines, I told them YES I am allergic to narcotics, please do not give me any.
I was scared that the pain would be really bad but I took the many wonderful suggstions that the wonderful people on here gave me and it really wasnt that bad. Actually, I had much less pain then before I had the dental work!
And, there were some amazing things I noticed. Years ago when I first started taking pain pills, I seemed to only notice the good things. And I just kept taking them. But now that I had the experience of being off them and clean for awhile then started taking them again, I noticed a lot of awful terrible things from being on them as compared to being off them.
-I actually have more real energy off of them. I may feel like they give me energy, but thats a lie, I just run around in circles never really getting anything accomplished.
-I actually feel good about myself when Im off them and I feel terrible about myself when im on them
-Im actually a better mom when im off them
-I have alot more money when Im not taking them, I go broke buying them
And much much more!!!!
So I am very glad to be off them for what I hope and pray is the last and final time!
I really appreciate all the support and encouragent and enlightment that I get here!
Hugs,
Harmony
