Was just gonna "read" today since I've been up the past two nights without sleep.......BUT......can't stand it, must reply to all you great people!
Shay
Last edited by shay4bliss; 06-07-2007 at 08:25 PM.
You know Mike, I started to write it 2 nights ago and decided it wasn't anything unique that everyone hasn't heard a million times and deleted all of it!
I am going to post a somewhat "tell all" tonight, after I do some replies. Got some newbies here today...hint, hint ...
Anyway, I don't know about facinating, but....I'll give it a whirl...
I never realized that I really never have told my story in ONE post before...it occured to me after several people asked what my deal was! And I needed to post anyway with other stuff.
Hey Shay... I would be very interested in hearin ur story as you sound like you've kinda seen it all when it comes to this stuff... just another newbie's 2 cents... take care... Dave!
HaHa! you're absolutely right, I have seen absolutely everything when it comes to addiction...I could make the book "million little pieces" look like a tea party! Nothing to be proud of believe me, but it's true....
It's so funny that so many people want my story....I'm humbled....I'm afraid I might disappoint...but I'm working on actually starting something....I did the other day and thought, "No one could care a less about this stuff" and deleted it.
I tend to become a babbling idiot when it comes to my own writings instead of writing for and about other people. Same goes for my crazy life! It's quite boring now, but I can tell a whole lotta stories that are incredible that happened prior to my son being born.....had to settle down after he came. Funny though, that's when my whole life really took a downward spiral....I am gonna write all this out (probably not all together), but I just gotta get my thoughts together first and take the time to do it...in the next couple days probably....
I don't want to be 3 thousand light years away anymore, I want to be right here, right now
I know it is black and white but in my grey mind, I havn't lost my mind, I'm tryin to find it. Have flipped a few switches along the way We are people who genuinely care about each other, we are people who help each other. We are tied up, broken people wanting to be well. We are no longer pieces of driftwood under the bridge. we are noble, ... we are strong.
That is so good! I only wish I could "Keep it (that)Simple"...i know you know where that comes from......
I'm STILL working on this one....
IYADWYADYAGWYAG....do you know this one?
"If you always do what you always did, you always get what you always got."
HaHa! I remember the first time I ever went to a "meeting", I thought I was the absolute ONLY person in the ENTIRE universe that POSSIBLY felt the way I did, had done the things I'd done, or was going thru what I was.....
I was so relieved to find out that indeed I was not all alone in this....It was so good to hear the "war stories". I never thought anyone else ever hid in a carwash to slam a few belts off a bottle, hid alcohol at home and drove to the convenience store just to throw the bottle away, cut a slit in my purse lining to hide a bottle of booze, stole vicodin out of people's medicine cabinets and replaced the pills with off brand tylenol, doctor shopped, etc, etc...
There's so much more power in these seemingly shamefull stories....They are what "opened" me up...got rid of the shame...and put me in acceptance of my "addiction"....(I really cringe at the word "problem")
When we get to the place YOU are at it so nice that you can actually "Keep it Simple"....
Hope I'm there one day..................................... ..........SOON!
Shay
Hi Shay,
I know you know I know. But it's a given, all those lil sayings in NA and AA are lifesavers. They have come back to me to pick me up when I feel weak-kneed. It was my meth doctor who got me started into the meeting scene, he told me he wouldn't give me anything if I didn't attempt to get group-help. So, off I went. Every day, I walked a couple miles to the meeting, walked over a graveyard, I did this everyday for a year, I guess that is how I got zapped. I met a lot of people just like me, and celebrated clean time together, then a year later, a lot of people started to die, or overdose (me included) then I stopped going. Now, I'm here with you. Isolating from them and not feeling cool about that.
hey kadee,
i did the same thing as you and i finally got up the nerve to call my sponsor the other day and guess what? she said she loves me and will never stop and to please come over, call, just please let her help again. it was wonderful. you should try it?
that'll have to do.
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