Trying to Reduce Meds for Pain
I certainly don't take many meds compared to many on this board, but I am hoping you all can help.
I take either a 10/500 hyrocodone or about 75-100mg of tramadol for sacroiliac pain a few times a week. I was taking them every day, and felt like I was becoming addicted to them and taking them at times for the wrong reasons. It really has been a struggle for me to reduce them.
Is it possible to get myself to a point where I take them ONLY when I REALLY need them? Or should I just try to quit? I really do have pain, and the severity and duration changes on a daily to weekly basis. I don't really want to give up the meds, but I am having such a hard time right now making the RIGHT decisions. In all honestly I probably really only need them about 1-2 times weekly.
I am crying as I write this because I feel like a horrible person. I hardly take any meds at all compared to many of you, but I feel like I am so weak that I can't take control of this. I made the decision in early May to reduce my meds. At that time I was taking the pain meds and/or sleeping pills every night to get to sleep. I did stop the sleeping pills, though I know those aren't really "addictive" the way the pain meds are. I just feel like I should be doing so much better by now. I have had a lot of stress in my life lately, and I think it really does make it harder to try to take the meds only when needed than to just stop them altogether. I want to do this, and for the most part I think I have only taken them when I need them-but the longer I have pain and have to take them, the harder it is not to take them when the pain is better. I hope that made sense!
I have been able to stop taking sleep meds and xanax. For several months I took daily sleep meds (mostly ambien) and xanax 0.25 once a day for a couple of months. I do take them on occasion but don't abuse them. I am seeing a therapist to help as well.
Any advice is appreciated, thanks all!
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