Toying with alcoholism. Health risks/dangers?
I started drinking regularly about 1-2 years ago, and now it's pretty much part of my nightly routine. This has included nights where I had college the next day, work the next day, or whatever, and drinking has never affected either of these (I graduated since, I'm 24 now). Besides that, I don't do any drugs or anything. My friends don't really drink that much, so in contrast they'll joke about me being an alcoholic, even though I've known real alcoholics who drink from morning to night every day. I'm not annoying or loud when I drink, I don't do it to suppress my problems, and I always wait til around 8 pm to start. I have about 2-4 mixed drinks (which might equal out to a 6-pack) 4-5 nights out of the week. I usually take a few days off when my body feels screwed up or sore, lol. Sometimes I'll wake up with brief stomach pains, and go back to sleep in 20 mins.
I like it because it clears my mind -- I meditate, and for some reason I can do this much more effectively when I'm hung over, lol. Throughout nutrition classes and books I've read, I've heard: having 1-2 drinks a day is usually healthy (there are some parameters), your liver is a very resilient organ capable of making a full recovery if you don't drink every night (hmm? but I do...), but then I'm scared by people who say that I'll get sclerosis of the liver, etc.
I've read things like "signs of alcoholism," and some are just really bizarre and do not match what I do (such as: hiding beer in random places, I just think of that Simpsons episode where Homer hides beer in the toilet, etc.); or stuff like drinking in the morning, which I've never done. I'm starting to go bald a little, I'm not sure if that's from drinking or stressing out during college or whatever. I'm getting a very small beer belly, besides that I'm tall and thin, and I eat very healthy foods. In terms of either personal health or addiction, can someone tell me if I'm heading down the wrong path? Or am I just a crazy character.... Thanks!