Welcome to the boards, and thank you for trusting the people here enough to introduce yourself and tell a bit about your story. It takes courage to be able to admit an addiction- even to strangers.
Please, if you are comfortable, tell us more about you. If you are not comfortable with that, then continue to come here and read as well as post as you are able. I hope you will be able to trust everyone here enough to open up eventually, because when you do you will find so much support and encouragement.
I will tell you that my husband has battled and overcome two separate addictions and is a much better person for it. He battled addiction to coke many, many years ago, and several years ago battled alcohol addiction. He has been totally clean, dry & sober for a very long time now.
Just know that everyone here cares about you and your situation. Nice meeting you!