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Old 09-30-2007, 03:12 PM   #1
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Wow....... addiction is a real journey!!!

Hi all,

I have been on and off this board for a very long time...thinking 5 years or more....been a while... my first reason for being here was an opiate addiction. However, I have found out since that I am just an addict...if it makes the pain go away, I want it in my body. I probably spent 3 years or more in denial. Found myself hooked on oxys, in excess of 300 mgs a day. Somehow I beat that, kind of....I got through the w/d thanks to the people on this board. But all I really did was replace it with alcohol.... I have "basically" been clean from my pill addiction for over 2 years now, but in the meantime have become absolutely aware that I am also an alcoholic... I had people on this board highly suggest to me to go to AA...resentent as I wass didn't for a long time....but a bottom took me there....I was clean and sober for almost 9 months.(truth be told..... with a couple of slips).....but SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy over all...... In the process of my addiction/alcoholism I gave away my marriage and the love of my son....during my sobriety I got it all back, and then some.....weird isnt it...I am still not happy. I am feeling depressed "ex" husband doesn't really understand depression...thinks I should just be able to "snap" out of it.... when I was in AA...I was a sponsor....had a sponsor.....basically sold my soul....some of my OCD coming out I am I am back with my son thinks I am doing great....parents think I am doing great....but I am not..... I know the answer I need to go back to meetings, and talk to people on this this is my first step.... back here.... How good it feels to just vent!!!!!!!!!!! thanks for listening!!!!

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Old 09-30-2007, 04:01 PM   #2
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Re: Wow....... addiction is a real journey!!!

Dear Joan,
It is such an ugly journey, isn't it? I just posted on another thread and don't have the energy to post much more. But I did want to thank you for your thread and wish you the best with your battle. It's time I get off this computer and try to act like a happy normal person for my dear husband's. sake.


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Old 10-01-2007, 05:30 AM   #3
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Re: Wow....... addiction is a real journey!!!

Dear Joan,

When in doubt, post it out.

Take care and God Bless

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