Originally Posted by amanda2517
im scared that one day i might not be able to pay then i wont get the medicine that day and i heard that once u stop u cant get back on it
This is probably the number 1 reason people don't seek help, and it is not an irrational fear. It is completely understandable that you fear being cut off until you are ready to try it another way. First, you need to get to someone who prescribes suboxone and discuss your concern. Your second concern about "once you are off you can't get back on" is completely untrue as far as I know.
Also, most communities have a methadone clinic. Methadone, though more difficult to withdraw from is very, very cheap. Sometimes it is necessary to switch to methadone simply because it is afordable. This is unfortunate, but not a disaster.
What you are facing now is far worse because you are forced to lie or at least stretch the truth to keep getting hydrocodone. Also, the tylenol added to hydrocodone is very hard on the liver. Both suboxone and methadone are very safe drugs by comparison.
Good luck and please get some professional help.