Re: first time with crack...
Today is the most important day of your life. THE MOST IMPORTANT DAY!!! You are at a cross road where you must make a decision to go left or right. Whatever way you go will change your life forever. FOREVER! I am repeating this because you need to understand how very serious this is. Most of us on this board have been at these crossroads. Some of us were lucky enough to have had the option to turn around and head back. And very few make it without getting lost. One road will lead you to a positive future filled with all kinds of possibilities ( a great carreer, a loving girlfriend someday wife, kids, travel, love, hapiness and laughter, THE AMERICAN DREAM) and the other will take all those possibilities away from you. Seriously. A crack head has no future. As a crack head, do you think you will find a quality mate, job, etc? You will have no money. The drug will take over your whole life leaving you no room for anything else. The drug will be your girlfriend, your career (being and addict is a full time job) your family, everytyhing. You have to understand that. Because if you break this down and simplify it-One road endless possibilities...the other road ONLY ONE... it really is a no brainer. Take it from us! We have all struggled and are struggling because of drugs. Most of us, if given the opportunity to go back, would have NEVER even tried them!!
You said you didn't know why you posted on this board. To me, it is someone out there giving you the chance that some of us never had. The chance to take that other road before it is too late. You are very lucky. And of you are smart, you will take the advice you get from the people here. Get help for your depression and don't self medicate. It doesn't work, that is a fact!
Remember this day my friend...this is the first day of the rest of your life. How will you choose to live it?