Originally Posted by Oxon17
but for no reason at all i find myself drinking so much, and im angry like all the time.
I used to find myself drinking for no reason or for any reason. I drank for the effect. In other words I wanted to get wasted and get away from myself. I couldn't stand to be in my own skin.
It only took me one year of drinking before I realized I might have a problem and only 9 years after that to quit. I will have 8 years sober in April.
For me there was no cutting down. I either drank or I did not drink. No middle of the road. Every morning I would tell myself, today, I'm not going to drink and by 3:00 that thought was out the window replaced by, what will I drink today? wine or vodka?
Anyway, I don't know how hold you are even though a post referenced age 17. That may or may not play a part in your recovery. Some people can quit drinking before they "cross the line" into alcoholism. I would talk to a doctor or health care professional and be totally honest about how much you drink and how often.
I went to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings in the beginning to help me quit. I couldn't do it by myself.
Good Luck. Keep us posted.