hi all, don't really know what to say as i have just joined and searched/read a lot of posts/responses from a lot of users. 1st of all i want to say what a lifesaver this board is - i have read other peoples stories and was reduced to tears (& thats not just coz im on detox emotional overdrive!) i would never consider NA as an option as i think it just wouldn't be my kind of thing - this board on the other hand provides the support/help/advice for people who need it whilst also maintaining annonimity.
i have been a heroin addict (am a heroin addict) for 20 yrs on & off, my longest time off was a period of 10years.unfortunatley due to personnal circumstances i relapsed 3 years ago. things got quite bad. i mean things got really really bad. anyway, i got on a methadone programme - my dosage peaked at 80ml - it shouldve gone up to 100+ but i was determined to try and reduce as fast as possible. its been exactly 1 year now and i reduced right down to 3ml. i spent 6 days on 3ml before going down to 2ml. over the 6 days i felt rough and woke early each day as well as having little energy. i decided to just GO FOR IT & rid my self of medication for good. i am on day 3 now, i have slept roughly 2-3 hours a night because of the "Leg Cramps/Spasms from Hell". apart from going to the toilet a lot - i have had no other adverse reactions so far (very minor chills). Thanks to reading this board i actually left the house & bought some tonic water & am hoping for a better nights sleep. fingers crossed(legs to!
Dont know why ive written/posted this, guess its just a cathartic process after being emotionally void for so long. i think what i really want to say to any1 thinking of going for detox/withdrawal is its a "horses for courses" scenario & evry1 is different. dont get scared by other peoples reactions to withdrawal, dont panic about the incredibly difficult scenarios that some members have (unfortunatley)gone through, we are all different. do read as much from searching these threads tho, as we are all so lucky to be able to read the wisdom shared by so many people from so many walks of lifes who have gone through so much. its truly inspirational (think i may weep any minute again!).
the main theme to the replies on this board is a strong 1 "IT IS POSSIBLE!" & What you are doing is a positive step in the right direction.
Good luck to all who try & try again to those who have failed.
keep on keeping on.
( i also am a stay at home father who has to look after a 3yr old boy whilst doing this w/d! now that IS motivational therapy)