So my stupid but did it again.
I am just not strong enough to have the pills in front of me or to call my friend and give them to her.
I think i might just have to do this cold turkey b/c i can't seem to gather enough strength to follow the taper.
My dr. appointment is Saturday and of course, i have non left. I am at work and i am getting that skin crawling feeling, like every muscle itches. AGGGHHHHH!!
Also, I hate my job beyond belief, and i am trying to hold it together till lunchtime so i can go sit in my car and cry.
They give me so much work and never even a thank you or a nod of appreciation. Then i found out that the director of Human Resources hates me and says that i complain too much. (But isn't that where you are supposed to take your complaints)?????
She said that i am on a rampage and i need to stop. (meanwhile she gossiped this). She said this b/c i went to a meeting and i had to park in the parking garage and when i got my car back it was all dented in the back bumper. Not too mention it wasn't even 24 hours old!!!!
So of course i complained. THey damaged my car!!! WHy wouldn't I!
And my boss flipped yesterday because there was an accident on the highway and i was late. So she yelled at me. But it wasn't my fault!
So anywhoo, that is what is going on with me.
Sorry to depress everybody!
By the way Reach, i couldn't do that foot trick either!!!
Does anybody know if i take Tramadol if it will help the w/d's till i see my dr. on saturday????
Sounds like you're about at the end of your thread. Yes, tramadol will help with the w/d's. You just have to be careful with that as well.. as with anything in life I guess. That's about the way it seems to me. I hope your day gets better, and dn't give up just because you messed up. Just keep on truckin, like it never happened and DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP! That accomplishes nothing. Stay strong!
Hang in there. This isn't easy. You can do it though. I have been clean for about 2 1/2 months and it feels really great. My original thread was titled "one day at a time". That is exactly how I did it. I was overwhelmed by thinking about tomorrow or next week without the pills but with great effort I felt that I could last the day that had began. Eventually I looked back and had made it a week, month, and so on. I don't know if you are like me and are self medicating to treat other symptoms ie. depression, anxiety, lack of energy, and of course pain. If you are, then you should know that there are other options to treat these things and now that I've found my right prescription and dosages I don't even crave the hydrocodone. I have corresponded with you on this site before but I don't recall if you have told anyone (family, friends, doctors) about your problem. It made a big difference to me and couldn't have done it without everyone's help. You can beat this. I will keep you in my prayers..... ms1.