jwf222

Day 1 hasn't been horrible, although I know from experience it usually isn't. Tonight and tomorrow is probably when it will be the worst. On day 2 I always have that feeling of "well yesterday wasn't that bad, I can do em occasionally." But I feel better this time because I have so much experience that I get better each time. Also I dont have any more money, I blew all my savings this time, which is really bad, but it will make a relapse harder to happen. I even started cash advancing a credit card at the end, and I cut that sucker up today! Advancing $ is something Ive never done, so I will have to deal with the guilt of that the whole time I'm paying it off! Guilt sucks, I need to remember that doing these things makes you do stupid stuff in all aspects of your lie, but try not to take it to the point of guilt. Im starting to get the upset stomach, so lets go ahead and get all this out and get on the road to feeling better!