newbie needing help
please help me, my bf is on/off(i think sometimes off) again heroine user. I am slowly dying inside. as bad as this is for him and you all, i feel like i am dying. he is pretending now that he is 'clean" only suboxone and an occasional opiate pill but i after finding white powder on his nose and licking it i think(almost sure) that its still dope. PLEASE ANSWER thIS IF YOU KNOW IN YOUR RESPONSE: NOW my question is WHY and is it possible to snort a pill (what he claimed it was) without getting sick or just snort a pill to get high (wouldnt suboxene block it) If he is taking suboxone?? he is THE BEST liar!!! his lies are rampant, i dont even think he wants to get clean, we love each other too much and he wants to stay with me as i want to stay with him so he just lies. and swears on us and our love. ive tried saying i dont want this life and that if he does he is on his own. he lies about everything but he is the love of my life. i see beyond this and know who he is and want to help him but i am worried that he doesnt want to get better. his dad and brother also live a sick disgusting life full of drugs, this may not seem crazy to him as it does for me. i am ready to have an intervention with his mom and family. he has been to rehab before and HATED it and obviously it didnt do anything.. everytime he relapses he makes promises to me and doesnt follow through, to go to meetings, counselor, last time he said he surrenders and ONLY went to TWO MEETINGS i feel like a fool hence the name stupdgrl, ive never trusted anyone and is an out of controll liar!!!! and then the excuses come, this has happend like 4times in 8 months!!! I NEED HELP, HE needs helps. i am NOT going to live a life like this. i work too hard and perservere through MY hard times. i know that im not an addict but what can i do to MAKE HIM DO THIS . i am hanging on by a thread. please help.