SuchAnAddict

I have been coming off oxycodone for about four days. I had been using for approx. three months. I started with morphine and then moved to oxycontin all during progression of a family members cancer. Toward the end I was taking well over a hundred milligrams of oxycontin a day. (6-8 x 20mg tablets) at first i was just taking the pills and enjoying the boost in mood and having happy thoughts. By the time of my family members death I had become hopelessly addicted to the drugs and was crushing and snorting 40mg at a time. I knew all along that the day would come that the access to the drugs would go away and that I would have to stop. That came very suddenly as the progression of the cancer put my family member in a state where they could not take pills and then they died within one week. I had hoarded all that I could in the last weeks of the illness and then, like an addict, binged all through the funeral and Christmas. I had read all about tapering and used the last of the stuff for several days, breaking the 20mg tablets into three pieces, the two ends and a larger center piece, taking the first in the morning another in the middle of the day and the larger piece at night. I have been out now for four days and am experiencing withdrawl symptoms such as sweats, restlesness, constant broken hearted feelings, and crying. I am just curious how long to expect these things to continue and what else I might expect.