I usually post on the Pain Management board. But I occassionally do read on here.
I'm not an alcoholic, and these days due to my prescribed med regime, I rarely if ever even drink. I did toast the New Year with a glass of Champagne!
But, the reason I'm compelled to post is to tell you the awful other side of the story. I am the sister of a guy who died at 33 from Chirossis (sp) of the liver. He went into 3 comas, before his 4th and fatal coma. His drink of choice?? BEER. Never touched the hard stuff!!! EVER!! He started drinking when he went off to Junior College, and hit the party scene.
The affect on our family (I'm the baby of 7) was devastating. I watched my dad, (who had a heart condition) have many nails be driven into his coffin, and he was sent to an early grave at 67, after burying his first born son.
However, all of that being said, the affects on family, friends, etc. MEAN NOTHING, if YOU don't CHOSE to DO THIS FOR YOU.
My brother did the treatments more often for us, than for him. Trying to please us, etc.
The first step in any 12 step program, (and yes the entire family went thru a 12 step prog. and family counseling) is being able to admit you have a problem. You have arrived, this is where you are!
(((berlin))) Embrace that. Now empower yourself.
AA does work, if you work
the program. I have see the success of it personally, (I have a dear friend who is in AA as well right now) which is part of the reason I vist this board as well as the pain board, it's just that I usually lurk. She just hit her 9 month chip in AA. *clap* *tear*
She was very near death, and one day, I'll come back and give you her story.
I would like to encourage you to go to AA. Get a sponsor. If you are not yet ready, or scared to do it "in your town" or "community" there are AA meetings that are offered on the WWW. Check out that option. Please don't become a statistic like my brother did. Alcohol DOES
Best of luck to you. Continue to fight the good fight..... Blessings.