Re: back again
I owned a housecleaning biz over the last 2 years (I had to stop bec it was killing my back) and yes, I stole from my homes. I feel like a complete sh-t for that and would be more devastated if these people who trusted me with their keys and belongings ever found out.
One client, actually, I was really worried they did. I was so worried after they let me go (after Christmas and their money was tight) that when they called a few months later for a spot clean, what did I do? Steal his Oxy yet again.
My family calls me Superman or The Boy Scout, yet my older brother is the raging alcoholic that everyone judges. If only they knew.
So I do understand most of what you're going through.
My advice is:
a. call your sponsor right now and fess up, so that you will have someone sober in your corner when you talk to your employer and fess up to him/her, too. Beg forgiveness, and tell the boss any truthfully significant events that have led you to this. For me, my dad died, I faced a recurrence of cancer and some PTSD from the war. Oh and my back was killing me.
b. re replacing the boss' vikes -- is there any way you can get some legit - how many are we talking about here - to replace them?
c. if you are not covered by private health ins, I would apply for Medicaid tomorrow and then apply for substance abuse treatment.
All of this is not only for your benefit, of course, but also to show your employer that this (being caught) is a huge wakeup call and out of ordinary.
Are you employed by a private person or a company?
I know this road won't be easy but I'm glad you reached out here - many will read and silently say, "Been there, done worse than that one" and some will post. All will understand.