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bajaboats · 02-13-2008, 03:11 AM

Good Morning all.

Baja WAVIN in as usual. Officially one week clean starting day 8.

I am going to start my diary here on this thread. I'll just post here and keep it on top.

Bass, Acapt. You guys keep helping me with your posts too.

Well I feel GREAT today.

I only got about 4 hrs sleep last night. I seem to be in some type of swing cycle with sleep. I got 7+ the night before and the night before that I only got about 4hrs. Every other day I get good sleep. And again today I don't feel as tired as I did yesterday when I got twice the sleep.

Like everything else I'm sure it will level off.

No aches at all.

Very tiny bit of anxiety but I handled it without Meds. Relaxation, Meditation.
My eyes are getting better I can tell. I still get worse at night but I might just be tired.
I feel very productive today.

I am pumped and have no desire to slip.

No sign of PAWS. I'm following instructions to keep them to a min.

I am going to stay away from the caffeine today at least cut to half and see how I do. I think that was what brought on what I thought was anxiety yesterday.

Everyone have a great day and check in with me.

Wavin at REACH, Bass, Acapt, Tat, Jules. Bless you all.

Peace
Baja

reachout · 02-13-2008, 03:38 AM

Heya Baja

That momentum is staying strong and productive for you. Good!

The sleep cycle can take a while to get back in balance. Keep rolling with it.

The attitude you are showing is good and good to read about. It is exciting to know we can and are getting better day by day, huh?

As Old bean would say... keep on keepin on.

Hugs
reach

acaptainn · 02-13-2008, 05:06 AM

And a hearty good mornin from the Capn, today is day 4 for me i actually slept well last night, i think that only coffe at 7am an none during the day helpd w/that tho i was draggin in the aftrnoon, I took a few laps aroung the warehouse where i work and up an down the stairs to get the blood flowing and the endorphins going.It did help.

Wifey says i kickd her outta bed last night w/ RSL i dint even know it.

Well have a grrrrrrrreeeaaaaaaaaaat day all an i,ll check in laters

bajaboats · 02-13-2008, 04:37 PM

Baja Here,

Had an excellent day. Better the yesterday. I actually made it 8 days without the junk.

No cafeine today at all and I was still zinging. Kinda hyper?

Small headache around 3PM but a couple motrin and all gone.
Hope I sleep like baby tonight! I only got 4hrs last nite if I was lucky.
Tonight is my full night sleep cycle from what I have been experiencing so I'm looking forward to hittin' the hay.

I'll check in the morning with the details but so far no probs at all.

How ya doin' Bass??

I hear you Acapt. Peace Out, You the Man..

Peace.
Baja

Wavin at REACH

You too Jules...

bass11 · 02-13-2008, 05:12 PM

Hey baja,
im hanging in there, anyday now I will go to zero, I almost did it today, and went to about 3 pm till taking a dose of 5mgs, didnt even really feel anything, just kinda took the upset stomach away. My anxiety is still rather high in the mornings , but I think most of it is mental. IM only taking 10 mgs a day right now and come friday will take none and get ready for the weekend.
Im definetly going to go to some type of N/A meeting, cause mentaly im really strugling with this. Im still in some moderate pain and keep trying to tell myself I can take theese if I use them for what they are made for , but I know I have to quit and will give it a try this weekend . will let you guys know . probally will be posting alot then . thanks everyone and oh HAPPY VALENTINES DAY BASS

bajaboats · 02-14-2008, 02:55 AM

Hey Peeps,

Baja is finishing the front nine today and for the back nine and feelin' Fine.

Momentum. I'm Flying high and not even on dope.

Wow, Funny thing how just plain life can be a high. Just jokeing about that one.

That's how life is intended to be.

I felt excellent yesterday.
Had a small headache towards afternoon. Took some asprin and still had it a little.
I remembered I didn't drink any caffeine yesterday and maybe another withdrawal from that?

I drank 1/2 a DEW and the headache was gone in 10 mins.

Sleep was fair. + or - 6hrs. I won't complain. + or - 4hrs and I will whine a bit.

Eyes got a little blurry towards evening.

I have NO other W/D symtoms other than these.

I feel super and I going the whole way..

Thanks for all you support EVERYONE!!

Wavin at Reach, Bass Acpat, Jules, TAT, Harley thanks.

Peace.
Baja

acaptainn · 02-14-2008, 06:15 AM

Bass, the mind/body is going to try to get you to give it more of that stuff.
You,ll be hypersensitive to evrything,heck the 1st few days, i would shiver when i pee,d ,also i couldnt run the shower at full pressure, it just takes some time for the nerves to settle, my pain has begun to lessen as the days pass.

Howdy Baja, its great to see ur doing well.

bajaboats · 02-15-2008, 04:08 AM

Hello Friends,

Hope everyone had a wonderful Valentines day!

I'm on Day ten today. I don't even miss it (the junk)

. All the pain I was in that got me into this mess has not really bothered me. I broke me Heal last year (Bad one) and the doc claims I have done some nerve damage beacuse the foot still hurts from time to time.

I went Skiing last night with my family for the first time. I missed all last year because of the injury. My heal never bothered me and WOW no pain meds.

It was just like riding a bike. I never missed a beat. I was into the gate racing before the injury and when my friends saw me back they asked me to join back in but I declined. I don't need another injury right not. If I get hurt I'll have to use the wood stick in the mouth this time for pain

. No Narc's for me next time.

I had a blast and may even go again with the kids today.

I feel excellent. Just like I did before I fell down. Makes one wonder why we fall down when it can be so wonderful clean. I guess they call that addiction.

Well I feel I am getting a third chance at life this time for sure. I'm not screwing this up.

My next crutch is the Cig's. I will start that maybe in a month or so. I'm going to follow Doc's orders and smoke for now and when he and I think I'm ready I'll do that jump. Doc just dosen't want me to take on too much at once and fall down again.

That's going to be a piece of cake compare the little walk thru hell. I know I won't have a problem with that one. I have quit many times in the past and stress would always push me back to smokes. Addictive personality I guess.

Well day TEN is here, thank God and everyone here. My friends.

The kids are off school so I'm home all day. Wife can't just take days off, at least if she wants to keep the job.

Wishing everyone a wondefull day.

Let me know how your doing Bass.. You can post me here or start new thread. I'll be here all weekend. I might disappear for a while and go skiing again but I'll be back.

Morning TAT. Hope I made you smile again..

Wavin at Reach, Acapt, Jules, TAT, Harley, MK, Yoss, DroopyEyes, Winnie, Seeking, and else everyone

Peace.
Baja.

acaptainn · 02-15-2008, 05:09 AM

Thinkin of skiingg makes me shiver ! I hates cold weather. But im happy it works for you Baja. Day 6 here in durned thankfull of it.

I too am going to quit smokes, a know some peeps that had great success with Chantix but a few of them they had trouble sleeping. Im not sleeping that great yet so im going to wait a bit on the smokes.

I,ll check in a lil later with Ya,all

bajaboats · 02-15-2008, 05:14 AM

Hey Capt.

I've lived here my whole life. I am used to it. It was only 20 degrees last night which is actually nice and comfy for skiing. Not so warm ya sweat and not so cold ya freeze. We gotta do something here with all this snow so might as well have fun!

I did sleep like a baby last night.
All that skiing wore me out.
Glad to hear from you.

Have a great day.

Peace.
Baja

bajaboats · 02-16-2008, 03:53 AM

Hey all. Mornin!

Baja goes to day 11 clean!!

Feel great and back to normal, Really!
Got about 6-7 hrs sleep. Keeping myself busy physically really helps wear me out and I sleep much better.

I got up this morning and went out for a smoke (It's 3 degrees F outside, OUCH) and I actually smiled, looked up to the sky and said to myself "Hello Life"

I didn't even have to run for the junk first to get that feeling. All inside me now. WOW.

I love the pink clouds.....

No signs of PAWS jules. I'm keeping my eyes on that this time. Thanks again.

I got a busy day today, a bunch of running around to do and maybe some skiing again?

I just gotta say thanks to all of you here. Bass my Bud, your post got me here to I feel I owe you. I prayed and god sent me here.

Things are also moving along with the wife as well as can be expected. It will be a long hard ride but I know that it is the road out not the road in.

Good morning to you TAT. I know your watching.

God Bless all of you

Waving at:
reachout
bass11
acaptainn
Angiejr2
DroopyEyes
Executor
harleybiker24
Jinters
jules3
kate26444
logalind
mk7657
oh-notagain
silentmayhem
Spork Schivago - I'm Praying for you Bud.
tat2duser
Winnie31

And anyone else I couldn't think of.
You have helpped in ways you will never know.

Peace.
Baja

bass11 · 02-16-2008, 05:36 AM

Baja,
You have been a great help to me already. I want to follow in your path and in a week I to will be saying 11 days , two weeks, 2 months , ect... Its strong willed people like yourself that get others to follow. Keep it up because I WILL be following.................. BASS

bajaboats · 02-17-2008, 05:53 AM

Hello All.
Working on day 12 !!

Well What Can I say.
I slept like a baby, I feel great!

I feel totally normal. Maybe a few of the Yawns yesterday but that was it.
Productive, and happy thinking happy thoughts.

Just like you all said. It gets better ever day.

Bless you all.

Peace.
Baja

Waving at:
reachout
bass11
acaptainn
Angiejr2
DroopyEyes
Executor
harleybiker24
Jinters
jules3
kate26444
logalind
mk7657
oh-notagain
silentmayhem
tat2duser
Winnie31

reachout · 02-17-2008, 06:32 AM

Heya Baja

Keeping that boat floating, huh? Chuckles.

Wishing you smooth sailing as you work in your recovery.

Hugs
reach

logalind · 02-17-2008, 08:11 AM

Baja thanks so much for the wave. I needed that today I woke up with pure anxiety and was praying for God to Guide me in my recovery and there you are.

I am definitely going to a meeting today and I think you might even have given me the courage to go to 2. I need to chase my recovery like I did my drug. I need all your prayers right now. It is really a horrible road we are on, I can deal with the body aches and pains its the anxiety thats kicking my butt. All I have is right now. did you feel tingling in your fingers, I am getting that now its really werid. Thanks again.

Lori

acaptainn · 02-17-2008, 09:38 AM

Hey Baja its awesome to see ya feelin sooo good ,, sad to say my wife an i had a lilcrash on the road out, fri nite we had toooo mch fun, im sure ya know what i mean, well the car is outta the ditch an here we go agin,, i,ll check black latrs

mk7657 · 02-17-2008, 10:49 AM

Hi Lori.

When I detoxed off of hydrocodone, soma, codeine, and dihydrocodeine, I had tingling in my hands and feet--it felt like they were going to sleep. I massaged my feet and they felt ice cold; that's when I thought I was dying. I massaged them a lot because it seemed to help. I reckon they have heating pads, hot water bottles... on the sticky detox thread at the beginning of this board for this symptom. I think it is a warning sign that these drugs are hard on the heart. Jmho, though.

Baja: Your doing great, friend. Keep up the good work and keep posting.

mk

tat2duser · 02-17-2008, 11:11 AM

Baja.... I just had to tell ya Brother that you are doing great!! I think I've said this before - but it's definately worth saying again....but your posts truly are inspiring.

And acap - no worries....chit happenns - dont drive yourself cray about slipping. It happens to us all at one point or another. Just get back n the horse, and start trotting again!

logalind....great idea bout hitting those meetings - not sure if you've been to any yet or not, but they are really good for the head. As far as the anxiety, it too - like all other coming clean symptoms - will pass....eventually.

Keep up the AWESOME work friends.....it's stories like all of yours that make this place great!!

Peace,
tat*

Angiejr2 · 02-17-2008, 01:04 PM

Hi Baja! Been away from the board for a couple of days--sober days I am so thrilled to read how well you are doing! You go!! Skiing....my 16 DD is trying to talk me into that--I must admit I miss it---but feeling like I am too old to try again, I know...your never to old....phttttt! Just wanted to bop in to say hi---your enthuiasim is very contagious in everyones recovery....thank you for that, cause the demon is tugging at me to cave in, after reading what you write, I am not giving into this posion! Have a great Sunday

~Angie

bajaboats · 02-18-2008, 04:35 AM

Hello All my friends!

Baja is feelin' GREAAAT!

I sometimes can't believe it. I'm really on day 13. Lucky 13 they say.

Thinking back, It was worth all the pain and agony. I wouldn't dare touch another just thinking about going thru that again will keep this addict on the clean path. That Skeeered me big time and I like to think I ain't Skeered of nothing. I am skeered of that junk.

I slept like a baby again. I got about a solid 6 hrs last night. I had been so productive I sometimes surprise myself.

I have been eating 3 times a day and still hitting the suppliments which I know is helping me with the energy.

I am slowly getting back my tollerance for caffeine however I am limiting it to just one or two cans of DEW per day. I don't need another problem. I have to Quit smoking cigs and plan on starting that journey towards the end of march. I'm going to see how my stress goes before I do that.

Hello logalind
My fingers tingled also but not too much. I live in MI and it is so cold here in the winter I may not have noticed it as a symtom of W/D as much as you do. My hands are usually always tingling when I go outside especially when we get the -20 wind chill.
Breathing and praying helped my anxiety along with doing something to keep busy and keep my mind off the junk. I did the quick taper under the supervision of my Doc. My Doc gave me a couple of scripts to help with anxiety in small doses and small quan because they are BENZOS. And he didn't want me trading the Oxy for Xanax and Librium.
I have been directed to take 3 10mg librium per day and I have .25mg xanax tabs if I start FREAK OUT. Doc only gave me 30 of each and no refills. I have to see him in his office each week to monitor my progress. I have only used maybe 4 or 5 of the Xanax in 3 weeks and I have taken the limrium as directed. I'm Skeeered of the BENZOS too. I never had a benzo problem (I personally don't feel like I get a buzz off them?) but I don't need that creeping up on me. Doc and I won't let that happen.

Hey Capt!
No big deal. I got you riding in my convoy here and we ain't leavin' no one behind

. You are only human and sometimes we fall down. I wouldn't be here if I had not fallen down.

Just get the spare tire put on and flush all those other spare tires if you know what I mean and we will get rolling outta this H*LL HOLE. Buddy, It is soooo worth it. I feel excellent.

A special HUG to REACH. Thanks Hun. Your a Blessing.

I bet Tat is smilin' right about now. Mornin' TAT. Hows it going Bud..

Thanks to all.
and I'll keep everyone up to date.

Oh, Things are going much better with my wife. I actually got her to speak to my Doc (her Doc too) and it really did make a big difference. I now am not fearing about getting served with papers.

I don't mean any disrespect to the Ladies here but I think I told here when she was on a cycle if you know what I mean. That may explain some of the reaction. She has calmed down dramatically and is now being supportive. I feel much better about that.

Peace.
Baja

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