Taper venting (whining)
Raz here. I'm on day 25 of what was originally a 21 day taper! I'm realizing that most of my difficulty with the journey is in my head, and that the physical part, while not fun, is the easier part. It's the anticipation of the physical, and the depression for me which is the toughest.
I feel like Lloyd Bridges in the movie Airplane - sure picked the wrong time to stop taking pills! The past week I've gotten more bad news and had more things go wrong than in the past six months. Deaths and illness in the family, things going wrong, etc. No fun. I'm having a really hard time focusing on the positive things, though I know that I need to more than ever.
I also know that despite the abnormal stress, using the percocet to deal with anything other than my pain (which while uncomfortable continues to be manageable at my taper dose) will be the worst move I could make. So I won't. I have to admit I came REALLY really close to bumping my dose yesterday ever so slightly after the water main on my property blew, but I didn't do it!!! :-)
Still, I'm dreading the next taper reduction (supposed to be today, but I might put it off). I'm currently taking 13mg/day in 4 x 3.33mg doses, down from 80-100mg at the start. But I so want this to be over and to move on. Next step is 12.5mg per day for one day, then 10mg/day 3 x 3.33mg for 3 days etc. Step off is planned at 5-6.66mg. I want off of this stuff!
My apologies for the whining, but thanks for listening! I hope you guys are having a great weekend!
All the best,