I have been "coming to these rooms"
for several years now. I never posted much,only listened - still a part (or should I say not a part) of my ongoing recovery. Never have been one to "throw it all out there" and I do know that after 2 1/2 years of sobriety that this is the reason that I am not TOTALLY joyous, happy and free. I began to do some of this today in response to your post Reach (how to want to get clean/stay clean). Rome wasnt built in a day so you might have to wait a few days for it.
All that I have bottled up, it might take you that long to read it.
I remember a few months after your taper, you posted that your time on the board might be limited and you thought that it was probably time that you were a little less dependent on it. Where as I understood the need for the "little birdie to spread it's wings" (or however the saying goes), I, of course, being the selfish addict that I am, thought only of me. How would
I be able to function without your wise words and learn from your experiences -not that I ever bothered to have any input or feedback to your post -
you were really screwing up my recovery. Good thing you didn't stay gone long.
What I am trying to say is............. In my mind, I know exactly how you should look, your eye color, hair color, the way you talk (sounds kinda creepy, doesn't it?
) I can hear you tell me " Now, Christy Ann, pull your head out of your butt and get on with life" (and I actually do it) That, my friend, is a gift - a gift to reach others (especially ones like me) so deeply that, even for a small second, makes them think that everything makes sense. I truly believe that in God's world, everything happens just the way it's suppose to. I believe that he blessed all of us here with your words - not just written words - heartfelt words from one addict to another.
Christy
