I think you know the answer to your question. While my DOC was not booze,
addiction is addiction, regardless of what little demon is calling your name on a daily basis.
I'm sorry for your health problems and can understand your seeking relief. If you have any doubt about whether or not you are an alcoholic, don't drink when you get home tomorrow....see how it goes.
I have never been to counseling or therapy, but I would bet it could be a great benefit to you. You sound very depressed, maybe you need an anti-depressant.
May help, may not. Stop beating yourself up and get some professional help, maybe start with your GP and take if from there.
Let us know how you are doing Newbie