Originally Posted by Llama
I feel like I'm becoming a pill addict and an alcoholic. I stole again from my dad tonight. Why do I keep doing this? I have also been drinking heavily. I Just wish I could make it all stop. I don't see my psychologist until the 27th and wish I could be seen sooner. How are you ever supposed to stop drinking? I am not being sarcastic here, I just honestly don't ever see this happening!?!??!!?
It seems to me that you are chasing a desired feeling that you are unable to get by simply using the medications prescribed to you.
It also appears that alcohol may have a "gateway" effect on you.
What I mean by this is that once you begin drinking, it increases the craving for other substances.
I have my therapists business email address, if the situation arises and not afraid to admit that I have used it a few times.
Is this an option for you?
If not, can you contact his office and explain that things are spiraling out of control and see if you could either speak to him/her, a colleague or assistant?
If things get to the point that you feel that you may physically harm yourself or others, go to the ER right away.
The answer to your question pertaining to drinking is one day at a time.
Do not concentrate on tomorrow, for it will be here soon enough; just focus on today and know that whatever craving that you may experience eventually passes, if given enough time.
AA and NA are options to consider, as they can provide you with a foundation to build upon. This will help you realize that there is strength in numbers.
For support and advice, I find this board to have a vast amount of information, advice and support (not to mention caring individuals). Do not be afraid or ashamed to post; we are non-judgemental and believe me when I tell you, we understand. Our different styles of getting our points across is what completes this board, as no one person is better than the other and we all wish the same for one another; a manageable peaceful and prosperous life, without using.