I'm kind of a lurker on these boards. I post sporatically, and have for the last couple of years.
I have recently quit smoking marajuana, for good. It's only been 3 days, and thats the longest I've gone this year. Last year I quit for about 6 weeks, and then started right back up again. Then it became even worse than before. I've pretty much been a semi-hardcore pothead for the last 3 years... I smoked 3-5 times a day, everyday, and now I'm not.
I'm not having physical withdrawls or anything but, psychologically it's been pretty challenging. I've also been having some pretty wicked nightmares that past few nights. I never used to dream when I'd smoke weed, weird I think. Perhaps it's because I needed weed to help me sleep, so I am battling insomnia right now as well. The past couple of nights I've been taking some Tylenol PM just to help me sleep and hopefully get my body back into a more normal rhythm...
I'm trying to get to the gym more, and focus on that to replace the drug I'm giving up. I have always had this love/hate relationship with mj... Now I just have to be done with it. I never thought I would become a pothead like I was. I never did drugs in highschool, and hell I never even drank alcohol until I was 21... I just started smoking one day and didn't quit. I battle depression and insecurities, which has been the hardest part of all. When I feel lonely, or sad, or embarassed, etc. smoking a bowl is no longer an option. That's whats so hard for me. It seemed to make me forget about my problems and instantly put me into a better mood and make me more optimisitic. My issues and insecurities were still there when the high wore off though...
Hi Sam....I commend you on your strong insight into the matter and your determination to do something that you need to do and KNOW is not helping with the issues that you have identified at hand.
You, as so many other young people, have fallen into the trend of "self medicating". You have so honestly shared with us how you KNOW that you have some depression going on and some sleeping problems for which you seek out MJ for relief.
The thing is, MJ isn't going to fix the problem at hand, sure it will provide temporary relief but since it isn't exactly the right med for your depression it isn't going to work long term.
I have two daughters who suffer from mood disorders and the older has sought out MJ and alcohol as a means of helping her through since the age of 14. She was finally diagnosed with ADD/Mood disorder and placed on the right meds and is doing lots better. She is 19 and in the college scene and still parties but admits to it being less frequent an urge since starting on the right meds. She and I even know when she has missed a dose of her meds it is that apparent in her behavior.
I would highly recommend that you seek out professional support from a psychiatrist who can evaluate you and help you to identify the root of your problem that has you seeking out MJ for relief. Once you are able to do this and find the right meds it will be far easier for you to give up the MJ as I have pointed out with my daughter.
I truly hope that you can give up the weed and look forward to following your success in doing so.
Sleep disturbance is one of the only obvious symptoms of cannabis withdrawal. What you describe - vivid dreams or nightmares - are very common. Tylenol PM contains benadryl, which is an antihistamine. This drug can leave you feeling pretty sleepy the next day because it has a long half-life (the time it remains in your system.)
I would suggest an alternative called melatonin. It is a naturally occurring hormone that helps regulate sleep. It is not mood-altering or addictive. It helps some people get to sleep more easily and, if you do wake up during the night, helps you get back to sleep more quickly.
Other than that, it sounds like you have a plan to increase healthy activities as a recovery strategy. This is a very good decision. I would suggest you consider exercise and good diet as your number one priority and, perhaps, even consider taking up an engaging form of exercise like cycling, hiking - something that is not only exercise but also fun. You are much more likely to continue doing something you enjoy. If you are able to do that, not only will it help you cope with your lifestyle change, it will improve your overall health and feeling of well-being.
Most people with drug and/or alcohol/nicotine dependency make numerous attempts to quit before they are successful. So, the most important thing is to keep trying until you find a strategy that works for you. There are many pathways to recovery!
Still hanging in there. Will be 2 weeks officially this upcoming Thursday, so that is a milestone for me This year I honestly hadn't even taken one day off.... I'm beginning to miss it less and less. My mind seems clearer than normal and I'm not coughing up stuff in the shower in the morning anymore from gravity bong hits the night before. Also, I'm saving lots a dough by not having to purchase an eighth of chronic every few days to keep up with my habit. All in all doing pretty good I plan on keeping everyone posted.
I know when I stopped smoking it was extremely hard (36 days) I found that since I was going totally drug free, no pills or anything that I needed something for the sleep. I actually started drinking Chamomile tea. It tastes terrible but a lil Splenda helps with the "herbal" taste. After I finish its about 30 minutes and my eyes are drooping. I was a bag every other day guy and never thought I would be able to quit cold turkey. It was hell getting off all the pills and not having the smoke to help but I made it through. I drank my tea in the evening and found a hobby. I also joined a program and got a sponsor who is a great help. We are talking a lot and going to meeting and it really helps to other peoples struggles and find that Im not alone.
So today marks 3 weeks exactly since I last smoked marajuana... It's been a little difficult but not as hard as I thought it would. I mostly miss smoking it with the people I did before... That's the hard part. I do feel more clear, and my lungs feel better for sure and there is definitely more money in my bank account
The vivid dreams are off and on. Had a few last week but none that I can really remember this week so far. Now that I say that watch me have one tonite, lol... The only reason I bring them up is because when I did use MJ for the past 3 years, it seems as though I was never dreaming during sleep... I probably was and was just too stoned to ever remember them... The ones I'm having as of late though are so off the wall and make absolutely no sense whatsoever... They are just so weird...
I was hoping with my quitting that some around me who smoke would perhaps jump on the wagon too... Hasn't happened yet though. I don't go around to everyone who still smokes and preach about my new ways at all, and i don't plan to. I did it for me and me only, as I said before it wasn't serving the purpose it once was and it was time to move on... I'm still tempted a little bit once and awhile but I can't afford to slip up. I miss it especially going to the movies. I bet I didn't see one movie at the theater in 3 years where I wasn't stoned outta my gord. I have found though I can still enjoy myself and not be high, it's just mind over matter. You decide your going to have fun no matter what, and that is the type of person I am...
I was wondering how in the world did u quit? Just cold turkey? Is it still working? My friend is the exact same way as you describe. He also suffers from anxiety. The only relief he finds is MJ. He so wants to quit for health reasons and financial. please keep me posted. Good Luck and Take care.
Last edited by nessanjeff; 08-08-2008 at 02:05 PM.
Good for you. What an accomplishment! My husband and I partake in MJ and I would love to be able to kick that. I don't smoke very often at all.. Maybe a few times a month but my husband is a smoker like you used to be. He says it helps him with his back pain and insomnia...