Re: Help!... I Think I Just I Made A Terriable Decision!
I don't know if the decision was right or wrong, but it is a moot point. The decision is history at this point and we have to work each day from where we are. So, where are you? Are you ready to tackle withdrawal?
Nobody, not one single one of us, wants to suffer at all. We would be nuts to look forward to it in any way. However, the reality is that if we want to get off drugs, no matter what our personal path to doing so, we have to brace ourselves and do it. We accept that we are going to go through withdrawal, but know that there will be an end to it.
I think the most fearful thing for me was not knowing what it was going to be like. For me it was a learn-as-I-go experience. The more I learned and understood what was happening to me and why, the more bearable it became. There were many times I felt like I was literally going to jump out of my skin, but as I understood more and more about withdrawal, I found ways to cope. I asked a million questions here and of my doctors. My life centered on withdrawal because it had to for survival. I think this is what must happen for you also.
The methadone must go because it is already being used past your own timeframe plan. Either taper off it as quickly as possible or just stop. Face the withdrawal... you have faced it before and know that it will end eventually. Gotta face the fear here and do it anyway. You can do it, you can.
Wishing you strength and bravery