Hi, i just found this message board and i'm hoping to receive a little support and maybe some advice. I have been addicted to pain kilers for about 3 years. Started out as a entrapped nerve in my foot, but that eventually got worked out. Now i have been having trouble with my left lower abdomen for about 2 years now. I have had every test anyone could think of. Latest diagnosis is IBS. I just don't know if this is correct. It is a diagnosis of exclusion. Other diagnosis have included fibromyalgia, cystic ovaries, colitis, and endometriosis. I am losing my trust in the medical community. I am currently on percocets (already gone- doubt doc will prescribe more with current diagnosis) I am scared of the pain. I've quit the pills several times over the last several years but 3 months seems to be about my limit, then i go back to them. How much of this pain is in my head? I don't know. I'm considering asking my dr. about methadone but don't know enough about it to make an informed decision. Is it only prescribed through methadone clinics? Does it really help? I've also considered suboxone but the cost is prohubitive as well as finding a dr. to prescribe it. Apparently insurance will not cover it. Also, through researching it i've found it is not recomended to patients who still have pain. I would love to live a pain free life but i'd settle for a pain reduced life. I seem to do fine until I have a really bad day, then I run to the E.R. and the process starts all over again. I take incredible amounts of ibuprofen a day and am worried about that as well. What is a person supposed to do if they need medications for pain but obviously can't take them responsibly? Haven't had any for 2 days and i'm doing ok with the detox part of it but sometimes the pain is incredible. At least my hubby is sympathetic. He has stuck by me through all of this, even through "falling off the wagon" repeatedly. Any ideas or suggestions are welcome. I guess I need someone to tell me that I can live without these for the long term. I am just so scared.