Tapering SUCKS - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

slinky1 · 06-22-2009, 09:40 AM

Well, here I go again trying to taper as many of you are. Because my Dr prescribed me Percocet and I'm used to Vicodin, it has been easier for me to taper because I've been throwing up on the Percs. The WD symptoms are pretty bad now; to the point that my sheets are soaked with sweat every damn morning. My boyfriend thinks its because of the Anti-Cancer drugs I'm on. (I'm in remission from Cervical Cancer) Well, thats what I LEAD him to believe. I certainly don't want him to know I'm in WD. I'm a moody b*tch, my skin resembles chicken skin, I spend the better part of the mornings in the bathroom, and I don't even want to talk to him. Of course when I am on the pills, I'm an energetic ball of energy and soooo much fun to be around. Its a catch 22. I know I need to clean myself out. All this lying, counting pills and hiding this addiction has taken its toll. And its also occured to me that I'm not pleasant around my kids either. They are on vacation with my ex-husband and I'm grateful they don't have to see this. At some point, I am not sure how I became so retarded and told myself its okay to drive around high with the kids in the car. What the hell is my problem? Don't I have ANY shame? And God lord, if my ex ever found out....I can't even imagine. Today is a bad day for me folks......

NotPerky · 06-22-2009, 04:58 PM

Slinky, how are you doing your taper? Are you doing it slowly or maybe moving too fast? I can completely relate to what you are saying....the "ball of energy" when you're on the pills....sometimes I find myself babbling and wonder if my friends thinked I'm hopped-up.

If you read my other posts (particularly today's) about tapering, you may find some hope. I'm starting to feel better, even though I'm still tapering. I'm just doing it a couple milligrams at a time. It drags out the process, sure, but I do NOT want to take any chances on blowing it by doing another drastic reduction.

Hang in there!!! If I can get through this, anyone can!

rksn · 06-22-2009, 08:48 PM

Hi Slinky, I agree, tapering sucks!!!4 years ago I was on xanex and rivitril i was buying mine off my guy so had no guidelines of how much i should or shouldnt be taking. I realised i was addicted to those as well as my DOC and knew i had to stop.When i was tapering I would freeze while i was sleeping but wake up soaked to the bone. I couldnt go outside, i didnt want to talk to anyone i would spend days in bed. No energy etc and my body ached.
It took a couple of months but i did manage to get myself off them. I know our meds and our reasons are completely different i just wanted to say hang in there, dont give up.
Im sorry i cant be more help.
Rach xox

mel486 · 06-22-2009, 10:49 PM

Hey Slinky, I can tell you with complete honesty, tapering too fast sucks really bad. I did it and the people in this group helped convince me to slow down and taper more slowly. You shouldn't taper more than 10-20% at a time and allow your body to adjust to the new dosage before tapering again - even in you have to break pills into pieces and estimate the next dose. I still tapered too way too fast (50+% at a time) and suffered w/d's the whole time, but I really wanted to get off of the pills bad. It depends on your body and how well you can stand the w/d's - yes I had some major blow-ups at my family, was moody and not fun to be around, but they understood and helped me through it. I am so glad that I am off of them now and can start to appreciate life more. Things are slowly getting back to normal. Find the right taper doses for your body and slow down a little to reduce the w/d's. Good Luck to you!