waywardson

So I decided this New Years to quit alcohol. I dont know if I am an alcoholic, but I have problems with it in my actions when I am drunk. I usually only drink a couple of time a week on the weekend, but I get very very drunk and have done mulitple dumb things that have impacted my life. I got a DUI for one, which messed up my career big time, I have spent way too much money, I have done risky things sexually. I keep telling myself that I am in control but I have been out too many times where I get drunk to a point of not careing and do stupid things. A main problem for me is I believe I have some sort of social anxiety and have used alcohol as way to be more comfortable. I dont really have any friends right now and the one gf I had recently lives 4 hours from me. I am really all alone and makes it more difficult. I am currently working on a masters degree so that helps, but I have no social outlet. I am bad at making friends and I currently live in a foregin country as I am stationed here. I really feel like a loser. I am 29 almost 30 and dont have the life I want. I was hoping to be close to married now or least with a long term girlfriend and much further along in career. But now I feel stuck and like I really have messed up everything and no more than a damaged good. Well I think if I can make it through this year without drinking I will be able to make some headway in life. I really am looking foward to moving.