Need adivce--detoxing off Herion tomorrow and dont want my wife and kids upset
I am 27. Have a wife and 3yr old and 1 yr old. I had a bad Heroin problem in early 20's but I got clean before I met my wife. I began using 2-3x a month, and actualy did that for about 2 years before my recent problem. I finally got a habit and have been using everyday for the last 6 months. It has been getting worse and worse, but I am now on 6-8 bags a day.
SOOOO, I have tried getting off dope a few times in the last months, but it causes BIG problems with my wife. She actually rather me be high, and have me be super dad and super husband, than me detox and have me sick for a few days. She has never used drugs and does not understand addiction. She has never seen me in my worst, so she doesnt understand whee this will go if it keeps going. I am lucky enough that i have no consequences for the last 6 months of using other than a crummy looking checking acct. Job doesnt know, friends and family doesnt know, and our life, other than me doing dope everyday, is normal.
I dont know what to do. I almost rather go into rehab than be home and have her fighting with me b/c I am sick on the couch and not being a great husband and dad like I normally am when I am high.
I do not want to call her selfish, but what else could it be that she rather me be high than try and get clean and go through me being sick and depressed for a few days.
What else can I do? I CANNOT keep getting high. I have been lucky enough that this last run has had NO consequences, but Iknow enough about addiction and have been to the bottom of the pit before and know that soon, no matter what, I will be down there.
Thanks soo much. I really hope to get some help.
Last edited by mod85; 03-24-2012 at 11:51 PM.