Re: When will this end? Opiate withdrawl
I am a chronic pain patient since I was 17. In order to walk I use Morphine, Oxycodone, Ibuprofen, and Soma daily....I've been on strong narcotics daily for the past 10 years.
I've also had 27 surgeries in the last 13 years and have had to detox off of pain meds prior to surgery dates so that the anesethsia and post op pain control would work. I also have mental issues, i'm bi-polar and in some of my not quite so bright and shining manic states when the pain would be bad and my meds weren't cutting it, I would self medicate with Percocet or Ultram even though I wasn't on it at the time, and even cocaine for a while....Trust me a manic bi polar brain does not always think the clearest. And yes to answer your question I did use slow tapers to get off the percocet and Ultram, those were at 2 seperate times, 2 different tapers.
I have detoxed from everything that I was not supposed to be taking and now only take the narcotics I am Rx'd and only as they are prescribed...never an extra pill, never crush em up....I can generally keep my pain down around a 5 on good days. My diseases are degenerative so they are and will continue to get worse as I get older....which will mean more surgeries, and continuing amounts of pain medication, my goal it to just try and use the bare minimum. At this point I take 180mgs Morphine/day, 60 mgs Oxycodone/day, 1600mgs Ibuprofen/day and 1 - 2 Soma/day as needed. I know that it is time for an increase in pain meds, because my pain for the last couple of months hangs around a 7 on good days....but I fight tooth and nail to not raise the meds unless I absolutely have to.
Besides the above mentioned pain meds, I also take Lithium, Lexapro, Vistaril, Klonopin, Clonodine, Premarin, Topomax, Axert, Ambien, Vit D, Vit b12 injections, and I think that's it right now...lots of drugs to keep up with and make sure they all play nice with each other in my system. My "drug health" is like a puzzle if you adjust or change one med, all the others tend to get out of whack....like missing a puzzle piece....and once they get out of whack it takes a minor miracle to get them all back playing nicely again.
You keep focusing on that 1 pill....it's not the 1 pill, it's the fact that withdrawals can last for months, because your body stores these drugs in various systems in your body, including your fat stores. So each time you relapsed you just woke up the remaining drug that was still in your system and the WD symptoms got bad again. What you need to do, is toss out any pills that you have left, or around the house, so that your not so easily tempted to fall again. Flush them down the drain. It won't be so easy for you to rationalize cheating and taking a pill, if there are no pills there to be taken.
When you finally get the drug out of your system and keep it out for a couple of months, then the WD symptoms and cravings should start to get easier and more manageable.